the problem I am having with lessons is twofold:
really hard to find a barn that has school horses that are the right combination of challenging and still safe, for someone who has been riding a long time;
and getting the ownership experience of getting to love on a horse and buy it things and pull its mane and all those little things. I just really don't enjoy going to the barn and riding a different horse all the time, and finding part leases of decent horses is super hard.
I'm considering buying and half leasing it out so at least it won't be so expensive.