RIP Aero

[Quinn]

h_p, I'm so sorry.

http://community.webshots.com/user/ballyduff

[Barnfairy]

Oh God, h-p, I'm sorry I didn't see this thread until now. You did the right thing, you did the right thing, you did the right thing. It was time.

It's so hard. I know. When my beloved Joshua left this earth I sobbed uncontrollably for days. When I thought I couldn't possibly have any more tears left to cry, I sobbed again. But eventually, I felt better, because I knew I did the right thing....and you will too.

[[[[hug]]]]

[relocatedTXjumpr]

I am so sorry. there are no words.

godspeed Aero. H_P, if there is anything we can do, let us know.

[LLDM]

Dearest Horse Poor - There are no words, but I offer you these which have brought some comfort to me when I thought there was none.

In Blackwater Woods by Mary Oliver, which reads in part:

To live in this world
you must be able
to do three things:
to love what is mortal;
to hold it
against your own bones knowing
that your own life depends on it;
and, when the time comes to let it go,
to let it go.

This is love.

Miss Lacy tells me that her mommy thinks Aero is quite handsome (and a little full of himself). She asked if she could go to, but I told her she has much to do and learn before she can stand with such distinguished company.

Molly, all I can say is that a part of you has gone with him, and a part of him has stayed with you. The ties that bind you together will stretch, but will not break. They will bring you together again in time. Until then remember the gifts you gave each other, even as you mourn.

It is better to have loved and lost...

My heart breaks for you.

SCFarm

[horse_poor]

Portia wrote:
<BLOCKQUOTE class="ip-ubbcode-quote"><font size="-1">quote:</font><HR> He's already across the Bridge, probably lifting a Guinness with Willem. <HR></BLOCKQUOTE>

No Portia, Aero is a brandy kinda guy

A friend just emailed me and asked if he went on his own or if I had to help him--I replie "well, you know Aero--why do something yourself when you can have someone else do it for you"

I just told the BO that Aero is now gone, like I was talking about the weather and she was like "WHAT?!" I wanted her to know because when the kids come home from school to take them away and that the round oen would tied up for a bit---she looked stunned---then I started to sob.

What a roller coaster ride. I am ok one minute, craptastic the next--I do worry about his bestest friend, a chestnut Princess named Molly--Jeske said if they do not see him they will not know, but i wonder....I think the CFP knows

I am going to go clean his stall and pack his blankets away and go sit with him.

I have so many regrets---not having his retirement this year, not spending more time with him, not getting him that fancy PURPLE high necked Rambo he liked so much, not trying hair of the newt and other witch doctor concoctions to try to heal him, not loving him enough......

[classicsporthorses]

We too are so very sorry for your loss. Your writings also brought tears to my eyes as just a week ago we had to put down our two year old filly as she rebroke her leg. Her leg had been broken as a wanling and she had been put back together. We got her from a rescue organization who could not take her and her options were VERY limited. When she came of age next year she was to be one of our broodmares.

For the rest of my life I will never forget the sound of her whinny and the way she called to me as I walked out the door that morning. in hind site, she was telling me she wanted me and as I could not see only her head and neck over the knoll to her pasture from the front of the house I did not see her leg. At first I just called to her and said "I am coming to feed you just a minute". It was not until my young daughter noticed it as we went to go feed that I realized her whinny was a call for help.

She was a tropper the entire time. The moment I saw it I knew this was the last day of her life. My husband and daughter just fell apart. I had to be the voice of reason and the strong shoulders that day. As the vet did her job and she fell to the ground, I simple curled myself into her head and neck and quietly cried and kissed her again and again.

Shortly after when everyone else knew to leave I just sobbed still curled up within that space and talked to her telling her what a good girl she was and now she could run like all of the other horses. It was a gorgeous fall day but that night it rained and I knew that God was crying too. The man who buried her did a marvelous job and she now overlooks the paddock she was in. As I straightened out her grave I continued to talk to her and cry. I have had to do this twice to two beloved horses within a 3 year period. It never gets easy.

This filly and I had big plans together and had worked so hard for her to finally get over the emotional baggage she came with. Our "doe eyed" girl was gone. It was not supposed to be that way. We too took a part of her mane and tail. As we did with our other mare.

We all mourn with you. When my other mare died right after foaling I recall saying to my husband "I know there is a lesson in this but I just don't know what it is yet". I look at her colt now and see the legacy she left for me to raise. He is a marvelous young stud and I am honored that she left me in his care. I will not let her down. I still visit her grave annually.

Your heart will heal and your wonderful memories of your horse will go on deep within your heart. Honor his life and your courage. He is happy and pain free now.

Blessings to you.

[Jessi P]

<BLOCKQUOTE class="ip-ubbcode-quote"><font size="-1">quote:</font><HR>Originally posted by horse_poor:

I have so many regrets-&lt;snip&gt;-- not loving him enough...... <HR></BLOCKQUOTE>

I think it is obvious to all of us on here that you loved him more than enough, Molly. You loved him enough to let him go.

We're with ya sister.

[Coreene]

Moll, your phone has been busy but I will keep trying.

[Invested1]

HP, although I don't know you personally, I know you well enough from your threads that your fear of not having loved Aero enough is completed unfounded--it is very obvious to all on the BB that you loved that horse with your entire being. And I guarantee that he knew it!!!

[spacely]

OMG, I am sitting here bawling. Godspeed Aero. Hugs Molly.

[Seahorsefarmtobe]

Aero is happy and healthy with all of his friends over the rainbow bridge.
I'm crying too hard to type. W're all here for you h_p!
Rainbow Bridge
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

Author unknown...

[JEN22]

HP, I cannot possibly express my sympathies on the loss of Aero. He was so lucky to have you for these years. Actually, you were lucky to have each other. You did the best thing you could do for him; you gave him what has been out of his reach. Freedom, and peace. He is now in such a better place where there is no cold, no rain, no pain. He's with Willem and all the others who have crossed the bridge before him. I truly believe there is a different God for animals, and he was there with Aero also, and hopefully you can look to him to be there with you for comfort along with the wonderful friends that you have all over the place that are sending you their love. I know in time that your pain will lessen, and you will go the rest of your days a better person for being with Aero as long as you were. Gem wants me to tall you that she would like to take you out for a Dairy Queen! We love you dear!

[situpandride]

molly, there was a moment after yellowhorse was injected and i had expected her to drop immediately and she didn't and stood there a few seconds like nothing happned and i got this wild nutty thought, oh the shot's not working and she's going to still be alive and i thought thank god because i just did such a terrible thing and it's not working, but then she dropped and i knew how irrational those thoughts were.
my last words to her were 'i'll see you again'
she is up there with willem and the other cushy horses, the one in a million horses, she was waiting for aero, she will show him where the grass is, she said they don't have cushy anymore and can eat the green grass again
she is buried in my field but that spot doesn't have much meaning to me, to tell you the truth, i was thinking of sending her body to a farrier friend of mine so she could examine her feet and have her feet with the other cadaver feet my friend has. someone told me that was a very odd thing to do but the body that worked for so long was a done, it was her spirit that had meaning, not the shell it was in.
there is always some thing that you hold onto that gets all the regret, for me it was not letting her have her new field for just one night, for you not burying him, for a dog of mine it was not getting her ice cream one more time. i think we pick that thing to focus all our regret on, because how can we express the depth of our loss, the meaning of our loss, so it comes down to a single thing we think about, that represents all we think we might have done and didn't do.
i am always planting things on her grave in memory of the loss of animals that have touched my soul, so aero will have something growing there for him, like willem does, and penny and whinny, i have to tell you this spot is not a well groomed neat area, it grows weeds and flowers i've never seen before and things i haven't planted and have no idea where they came from and the rescued goats tend to it, yellowhorse says that it's fitting to have the goats tend to the spot
rest in peace old boy, you were a good horse

[Gunnar]

Molly, you did love him enough. We all loved him. I am so sorry for you heart ache and wish you would feel better. My Shiloh was waiting at the bridge and he will take grat care of Aero (he is a little chestnut, if he could join the big chestnut crowd.) Aero watch for Shiloh as he may make you leap high fences just for fun.

Take care and try to be OK.

[Coreene]

situpandride, speaking of the flowers, you will be happy to know that the yellow mustard flowers are blossoming in honor of the yellowhorse at Willem's garden.

Willem's garden will now be graced with something new, which I shall plant in Aero's honor.

[EBO]

My condolences. There are no other words that would make it easier or less painful. We all understand.

[Boston Chicken]

I am so very sorry. We all love you here, especially for how you loved your baby Aero. Please lean, and lean hard - we'll catch you.

Gillian

[mighty mite]

horse-poor, please accept my deepest condolences. In the end, you knew what that special boy needed and wanted.

I have had lots of pets in and out of my life. Each passing is so difficult. I have decided to start making my own flagstones. One for each of my dearly departed pets. I will put their name, date of birth and date of death for the ones no longer with me. I will add little sayings, nicknames, maybe old doggie tags or anything at all that will remind me of that particular special little being. Then I will distribute the flagstones in my rose garden and when I sit on my bench, I can read them all.

[barbarachloejosie]

I am so sorry, horsepoor. You showed him how much you loved him by being there up to the last second and thats what counts. Godspeed, Aero!!

Barbara and Daisy

[BasqueMom]

Horse_poor, condolences and hugs.

He could not have been more loved and you gave him the final gift.

Godspeed Areo across the Bridge.