Lately my pancreas has been really unkind. So bad in fact, I've been hospitalized twice in the last month a go for surgery tomorrow.
My medical disability is not what is needs to be to keep us going. Twice the bank account has gone negative. Medical bills, and other bills are piling up. I've thought about selling my horses but it kills me because they are the only link I have to making me feel normal.
What do you do when life just keeps beating you up? I've cut back in every area I can think. I've tried to avoid my expensive meds because that takes away from bills.
Even worse, I hate this is all on my husband. He's the only one bringing in a good amount of money. I hate that his life is this way because of me.
Really, I just needed to vent. Sometimes life just sucks.
I am so, so sorry. That is a heap of unwelcomed health problems. It sounds like you are getting by until things turnaround a bit - and you are keeping your horses around for the infinite amounts of sunshine they provide. That is a sound strategy as long as your husband is on board. Communicating with your SO regularly about your plans for the next stretch of time -- and adjusting as needed can keep the boat afloat on the bumpy journey. Best wishes that your health improves soon!
Sending jingles that your health get's much better soon! These are the kind of stories that p*ss me off that American's can be one unforeseen health problem from financial duress, no matter how secure & stable they were before...
Good luck vibes to you, things must get better! (crossing fingers)
My prayers and good thoughts for you...this time sucks and it's got to be so hard to deal with.
I understand feeling bad for your husband, but he sounds like one helluva guy. And it is for better or worse, he sounds like he stepped right up to that plate. He must know you're very much worth it.
Can you lease out or partial lease your horses? Might help with the expenses and still keep them in your life for the times you feel able to be around them.
You jump in the saddle,
Hold onto the bridle!
Jump in the line!
I'm in the same boat with my lyme disease, and I just left my doctor of 7 years because her craziness made it an even "worser" nightmare. What helped a bit was hearing my counselor tell me "Sometimes all you can do is just hang on". Not sure why that helped so much. I also ended a friendship because the person had absolutely no compassion for me going through hell with my illness. Anyway, feel free to pm if you want to talk with someone who understands. It sucks when people don't.
Thanks all. Well, the surgery was not good. Basically, I was told either we remove the pancreas with islet cell transplant (not a good option) or this is as good as it gets. So, I guess this is as good as it gets
I wish leasing was an option. My older gelding is on and off lame so I wouldn't want to add stress to him. He's happy with his bit of work now. My mare was just started 30 days ago. So she's a bit of a handful. Although, once she's going I am certain someone would love to lease or buy her. (Not that I want to sell.) She's a really nice ISH who moves wonderfully.
I am just sad. I just wish someone could give me some predictable quality of life. I never know from one minute to the next if I'll be ok or feel like crap.
Yes, sometimes life does just suck. I am so sorry for you with these serious healthy problems. I am wishing you all the best for your surgery and recovery. Please let us know how it is going?
A few years ago there was a radio interview about islet cell transplants and how a Canadian team had discovered a way to make it work. It had always before been unsuccessful because of rejection. They used the same techniques as others before them but simply reduced the anti-rejection meds and had success. I would think that would also mean that any negative side effects of the anti-rejection drugs would also be reduced. I think you will be feeling much better soon.