Sorry, I initially came online looking for something to cheer me up because it was just heartbreaking pulling in from the vet and coming up the walkway and not having my Petey run to greet me and trip me up by rubbing all over my legs and flopping down to roll in front of me. I was never a cat person, I didn't even want the thing to begin with! Family members were moving and had to get rid of him so we reluctantly took him in 4 years ago. Damn cat grew on me and became my favorite animal in the house though! He had the best personality, a real lover, but a scrapper too. He hunted with the best of them; birds, bunnies, mice, moles...they'll all be a little safer now. We never even had to clean a litter box for him, he always went outside to do his business.
Every morning he was the first one to get up with me. This morning the cat didn't get up on his own though, and no more than 12 hours after we first noticed he was a little lethargic, I rushed him to the local emergency vet clinic because he seemed worse and looked like a different cat overnight. Blood work came back with a creatinine of 21, and a diagnosis of kidney failure at 6 years old. We'll never know if it was chronic without obvious signs, or if it was something like antifreeze poisoning. But he will be greatly missed, and never replaced.
Thanks everyone I know so many have experienced similar losses, and sometimes it just feels good to share, so I thank you. Yesterday was extremely hard not seeing Petey in all his usual places (pretty much anywhere I would be) since the whole thing was so sudden, but today is going a little better. The sight of his favorite scratching tree caught my eye on the way out this morning, and I almost lost it again before pulling it together. One of the things I realized is that even though it's "just a cat" and there are worse things going on right now like family members battling cancer or worse, this cat was with me every. single. day. from sun up, then again before sun down. He was part of my daily routine, not someone I had to remember to call or go visit in order to stay close with, and I think that's what makes it such a huge loss.
yes, they are part of our daily lives where most of our family and friends are not. It does make for daily loneliness and a lot of adjustment when we lose these best friends. Hoping that your best memories of Petey are surfacing more and more each day and the suddenness of his loss is receding as quickly as possible.