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  1. #1
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    This is probably not where this thread belongs but I couldn't decide where else to put it.

    My dad was diagnosed with terminal cancer last November. He had chemo, radiation, and lots of other things but after Christmas his health began deteriorating rapidly. The hospital released him to home hospice care yesterday.

    I am taking two weeks leave from work to go home to be with him and help my mother and sisters manage things. Having been there over the weekend I have realized that neither of my sisters is able to make any decisions, and my mom is barely holding it together.

    I seem to be the only one not completely effected by my dad's illness. Granted I've had 300 miles or so of separation and the distraction of the eventing season, but I feel like I should be more upset but I'm not. Maybe it will hit me later? I don't know. I just feel like the only person bailing water in a sinking boat.

    I guess I just needed to vent somewhere. Thanks guys.



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    Vent away, you know we care. Do not 'beat yourself up' over the fact that you seem better able to cope/deal with practicalities more now than the others. Some of us just are that way, and we wait until after the crisis has passed to become basket cases/grieve.
    Jeanie
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    My thoughts are with you and your family. Everyone grieves differently and I know I had a similar reaction to my grandfather who I was extremely close to: I didn't seem to be that upset or grieved by his passing (it was expected), but once things settled down after the funeral, that's when it all hit. Vent here, find a safe place, do what ever you need to do.



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    I have never been in your type of situation, but I do know that most communities have a hospice group which can provide all sorts of help -- physical, emotional, councilling, info on where to get assistive devices, etc. It might help to contact them.

    Best wishes.



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    Sorry you are going through this. Don't overanalyze your feelings too much. Coping and grief are different for each of us. There are things you never get over, but you get through.



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    I'm so sorry to hear that you're going through this.

    My dad was diagnosed with cancer in late December and is going through radiation right now, so I sort of know what youre going through.

    I too, seem to be the family member that is "holding it together" the best. Dont feel guilty for that and dont overanalyze it. There might come a day that you are not able to be the strong one--and that's okay too. Just try to be strong each day and spend as much time as you can with your dad.
    Charlie Brown (1994 bay TB X gelding)
    White Star (2004 grey TB gelding)

    Mystical Moment, 1977-2010.



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    Thanks guys. This helps. I've been home a little less than a week. It's hard but not as hard as I thought it was going to be. He's doing okay so far, and very lucid which when he was in the hospital he wasn't. Something to do with the amonia levels and his liver not working as it should. Thank you for listening.



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    Default HUGS ````

    SORRY TO READ ABOUT THIS STRUGGLE ```

    HUGS FOR YOU AND YOUR FAMILY ```

    ONE DAY AT A TIME ....

    BE KIND TO YOURSELF ....
    Zu Zu Bailey " IT"S A WONDERFUL LIFE !"



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    Sending jingles and hugs to you, your Dad and your family.



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    Hugs to you and prayers for your dad…



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    More thoughts and prayers and JINGLES ~~~
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    I'm in about the same bucket, but it's my mom (Multiple Myeloma). She's stopped chemo but will continue transfusions & other medications as needed until it's truly time for in-home hospice. I'm ok most of the time; usually fall apart in the shower. My brother, tho? I could strangle him.

    ((( Undertanding hugs ))) to you Cameraine.
    <>< Sorrow Looks Back. Worry Looks Around. Faith Looks Up! -- "When they try to tell you these are your Golden years, don't believe 'em.... It's rust."



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    Just saw this thread and your family is now in my thoughts.

    I am somewhat similar in my feelings, or lack thereof, about my dad's cancer. The only time I've been particularly emotional about it was in March.

    The next sister down & I were home visiting. Toward the end of the meeting with his nurse, my sister started to cry. Then I started to cry because she was crying.

    I'm not particularly sad about my father's illness. I'm actually mad and a few other things. But, I suspect when he does die, I will be sad then.

    Everybody reacts differently.

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