Well I know I am going to go..That is my choice to try to go through all this with joy and fun..Discipline and determination also.
My very good friend Bernice (Talloaks) is also affected and this made me so sad..On another hand, we met on COTH, it is fantastic, we discovered we were both Canadians, Bernie from Vancouver and I am holding in Quebec..Is'nt this magical !
On top of this icing she share with my mother the same birthday date !
Let's go Bernie..let's beat the statistics and I am ready !
Today I rode and discovered how my lack of real good legs demand is stiffening my seat !! OMG..
So a bit dizzy, a lots of heat here so just rode to feel those legs, experiment a couple of things and finally really feel my seat going smoothly, free..
Thanks again everybody for such a great support..It is just incredible how I feel your good thougts !
I am getting prepared for the show and tomorrow is chemo..How do I cope with all this ? I really don't know.
How can I find the strenght to get on a 3 yrs..I really don't know. I go slowly, wait for the young horse to realise Mommy is on him and he has to behave because Mommy is going to take off otherwise...
Maybe this is my thoughts, doing so much to really put solid foundation and waiting for their signal telling me they are ready...
My energy is back down again..I am happy I did what I have planned and then crash down in the sofa..
You are an inspiration! I wish you all the joy you can get from your riding and your life. You certainly know how to live and not just exist! I love your attitude of grabbing life by the horns... we should all aspire to live as bravely as you have. My stepdad is dealing with cancer now, and it has gotten me down and it is not even my own cancer. I shall try to have a better attitude from now on. Best wishes, I'll be thinking about you
I made a huge discovery and this is changing my perspective about riding a dominant horse. My grey filly gave me a BIG lesson of life..
I was riding her and I was not going anywhere the last time and she was bucking against my leg, on the forehand, resisting, even spooking !
So I told myself..Hmmmm this is not good at all, something is missing here so I tried different lenght of reins, different positions of my hands..Until I found she could teach me where she wanted my hands to be, how smooth she wanted my arms, how elastic my elbows...
So we did talk, body language conversation and within 10 minutes she just was so relax, working from behind, chewing the bit...A DREAM !
And every single second I was not OK, she moved one ears toward me, like to say..Hey Buddy, straight yourself out and dare listening to me for once ! You taught me what was a good ride so now behave !
I thought about this experience and now this has changed totally my thought about dominance and why it can be difficult to ride those horse. They know what kind of rider they want, they won't twisted themselves to fit into the ride..No way !
On another hand, they are GREAT TEACHERS..They will adress the rider's weakness and actually we need a deep forgiveness for not listening..They don't charge one penny for these coachings ! Or they will send you for a flight over the fences..
My other filly, the cuty pie Orla..she has no confidence in herself so she rely totally in the rider and will twist herself into the ride the more she can..
That kind can be ruined pretty fast under bad hands and probaly would join those who suffer or disconnect from the rider..
It was a great and neat experience, where I really felt the responsability over my shoulders more than ever...
Before I felt, but now no more excuse..I need to become better for the goods of the horse and I am improving !!!
On health side, well..I am afraid the rabbit has stopped to run..Pain increase since last week..I just focus on the show and I will think about these pains later..after the show..