Élène, this can't be said enough: you ARE an inspiration! We will always be with you and I can promise you, we will carry you in our hearts and minds for the rest of our lives. As long as you are loved, you are not forgotten. And as long as you are remembered, you live on. You've touched us all in such loving and amazing ways that you will have immortality through us.
I wish you sunny days and riding for as long as possible.
"One person's cowboy is another person's blooming idiot" -- katarine
May I ask why you are hesitant about taking the morphine?
My father has cancer. His biggest fear of the whole journey is that he will have pain.
His primary care doctor is apparently notorious for not giving adequate amounts of pain relief. I don't understand this, for a terminally ill patient, what's the concern...that they'll become addicted? Who cares!
Luckily, my father is in a wonderful pre-hospice program. His same nurse will continue when he needs full hospice. And she assures him weekly that her arsenal contains enough medicine that he will not have pain.
Right now, he takes a little oxycodone. He says he feels discomfort, but wonders how much of it is in his head, knowing the tumors are there and growing.
I feel hesitant since I don't really like taking much pain relief..I know this might look stupid but I felt I would loose my mind.
Actually it is better to become addict to it since most of the side effects vanish.
Last year, my mom who passed away was very reluctant to any drug. I don't think she suffered a lot since she had multiple sclerosis so very little sensitivity through her body.
But now, taking the interdose, I feel so much better ! It is another step ! I need to take it this way.
Fighting the pain is draining energy I have to realise this.
As long as I can ride..This is the most important thing..Having fun and riding !
Thank you for answering my question. I can certainly understand wanting to be in control of one's mind.
As I was writing this, I thought maybe this is the reason why I stayed away from drugs and alcool all my life. A glass of good wine was ok but not more. There is a time where I was doing a lot of sport and I realise how alcool especially is not good for muscle tonus.
I certainly have the same reluctance for the pain relief right now.