Getting over your fear of a certain horse?
So, about 3 weeks ago(maybe more, it was really all a blur for me anyways) I had a pretty bad fall off of one of my horses. This particular horse is one that is an 8 year old Appendix Quarter, homebred and has never really ever been known for 'acting out'. Granted, he had an accident about 3 or so years ago at a boarding barn that left him with paralysis on the right side of his face as well as a broken processing bone in his skull and he was stall bound for a while since we couldn't 'shake the egg' so to speak. Up until that point the horse had been in training to do the Hunters for a few years and had shown lightly with me in the irons and recently he had been backed by a trainer who wanted to suddenly have him do the small juniors (with me in mind) since this horse REALLY has the jump and the power behind him. He'd never really been shown by anyone else but me and maybe he was a bit annoyed by this new 'trainer'.
The said accident happened when we had decided to get some jumping photos for my slideshow at school due to graduation coming up. I ended up using the said horse over my mare due to her not really having that photogenic quality, and to add to that she's a pretty nervous horse that looks at everything. The said horse had a really good foundation as a baby and the only thing he ever looked at was this bright pink Hello Kitty umbrella that someone had left by the ring at a horse show once.
Long story short, we warmed him up on the flat and then over a smaller jump(about 2'6) a couple of times before my mom and I decided to bump up the jump since he felt like he was ready to go and the first time he sort of balked at the jump so I took him back around again. The second time around I felt that he had the right pace and so I steered him to the jump. I didn't feel anything abnormal on take off and was pretty happy with the jump. However, he bucked once when he landed and I ended up recovering, but then he bucked twice to the side on the first stride away from the jump and this time I was unseated and fell off. Needless to say he ended up running around the whole twenty acres for a few minutes because we couldn't catch him. My mom also ended up having to call EMS.
Now, i'm sort of afraid to ride him and would like some advice on how to overcome this apprehensiveness that I now have. I haven't ridden him since and my mom has made me ride the mare that we would have used otherwise, should we not have decided to use him. My mom and I pow-wowed together and came up with the ideas that a) Maybe the camera that the photographer was using bothered him since it made this beeping noise, but that hasn't ever bothered him before, b) That the accident made his personality change and then finally c) That all this abnormal stimuli made him act out in this manner.