Its just my opinion. Your sarcasm doesn't go very far with me, not sure what you would expect from me by being irate. Threatening suicide on the internet is not new, but very old (previous poster) and often done for attention. I do feel for you and what you have gone through, especially since I went through similar situations myself and certainly don't think I handled it gracefully or well. I did not, however, put it on a bulletin board looking for petting and co-snuffling, which you did do.
I hope you can pick yourself up and move on with grace and fortitude, and I wish the best for your animals which need to be rehomed, which should be all of them, but you have been cagey about them and it looks to me as though you are looking to rehome the oldsters and keep the younger ones. Maybe I am wrong? I just really hope you're not another chanter looking for online followers of drama and free rides, and I do have a right to say it on this BB in particular. In other words, I do hope I am wrong. However, I do have a right to express my concerns, and I tend to do so when money and BB member support is concerned. I just noticed that there were online BB memebers who weren't getting responses from you. I hope you have corrected that and folks wanting to take your horses are being met and shown the horses, now, because it looked very much like they weren't, earlier.
Good luck. Its a hard place to be in, and scary to see yourself out of it. I'm certain you can do it.