Im at a loss of what to do.... I need some help.
My first and only horse of 8 years is just sucking away money. I cant ride him due to feet issues. Never able to jump again or any hard work. Best bet is a pasture pet. Which I can not afford to keep..... everything around here is a couple of hundred bucks.
I love the hell out of him. I always promised he would be mine forever...I cant fathom selling him..... I doubt I could anyway as he cant do more then walk around. Hell, giving him away would probably be difficult. Even then I would always worry about him.
Part of me thinks that the current farrier and vet just arent the right combo for him. My favorite farrier and vet wont travel out as far as he is now. But I have nowhere to bring him to be closer to where I am at for them to give an opinion. Not saying current farrier and vet are bad, they are just new and dont really know my horse as well as the others do.
The xrays of his feet showed that the bones had shifted due to a really really bad trim (he had no heels at all. Seriously was on his bulbs.... crooked and aojghsahgouweh i was furious.) and then was shipped xcountry. He was in a different state for two months while I moved around and tried to figure out where I was going to live. He was NOT taken care of at all. Who knows what went on up there. All I could figure was the "farrier" and the trip home. He is on anti inflammatories and padded wedged shoes for support. Those are NOT cheap at all!
He doesnt seem super depressed or in terrible pain. But he doesnt seem to have the same spunk as he used to and doesnt try to run the pasture like he always did. He has his good days and bad days when it comes to his soundness. Future is kind of unknown still except the fact of no more jumping.
I've toyed the idea of euthanasia....but he is only 13 and doesnt seem like he is ready to give up. (plus he has to be at my future wedding :P) I could just be pointing a blind eye but I honestly dont know if that would be the best route.....not yet anyway.
What would you do if your heart horse was pretty much retired from working but you just cant afford to keep him. If it wernt for the soundness issues we would be fine continuing with the lease we have right now (he was a w/t lesson horse for a few kids. BO is having to thin out her herd and wont have use for a lesson horse that cant jump or be consistently sound...he isnt the only one having to go)
I once kept him at a therapy center for kids. Not as a therapy horse but because it was nice and I liked to volunteer. He loved the kids though. He would stand perfectly still when they wanted to groom him (with my careful supervision) and lower his head or even hold his feet up for them! I was just amazed. I think he would love just being pampered but I dont think anywhere could really afford a horse just for grooming purposes. He is 17hh so a bit hard for therapy riding and his trot is very bouncy.... knows split rein and neck rein and is very bomb proof. He is almost perfect for that role.... but I couldnt afford it and I doubt a place like that would want to, either. :/
Im sorry....starting to ramble now. I just need some help figuring things out with him....it is just making me sick trying to. :(