Pity Party, care to chime in?
So I realize that this is basically going to be me whining for the next few paragraphs but I just don't know how to feel. For starters I'm not disabled per-say but I do have Ulcerative Colitis, which has nearly caused Lupus, amongst other painful things. I'm allergic to almost all of the meds. nearly unresponsive to steroids and basically if i get sick it's going to be a mess trying to use experimental therapies or getting a colostmy bag, i'm 22 and i don't think at any age I'll think riding with a colostmy bag will be fun. Speaking of which anyone here have any advice on that?
Anyway, since I've moved I've had a hard time with farriers either their down right awful or like my last guy who was ok have decided to quit shoeing and pick up more training. gr. This has lead me to pull out some old skills that I learned traveling with my farrier as a kid (not THAT long ago) and combined that with information learned from my last farrier in PA that was FANTASTIC! to start trimming my two mares. *flame suit on* I've been laid off and just recently got a seasonal position that will get me a little money while I'm looking for a job... but back to where I'm going with this. I came home from trimming my girls and I made a comment about how I wish that the farriers here were better, when my boyfriend looks at me and is like "well why don't you go to school and be a farrier so there will be good farriers and then you'll have a job." now this has crossed my mind before but I figured he would totally shoot it down. I'm like alright I'll look into it, I bounce it off my mom and a few others and get positive reviews. my parents tried to save money for me to go to college but what's in that account wont cover even half a semester at most colleges, but it will cove farrier school and most of my start up costs. awesome.
So last night we're debating rig set up and vehicles and DH's like "well you really only need something for a few years before you have to get a government job or something." and i'm like wtf? why would i get a government job? and he's like "that's the only career field I can think of that will have good enough health insurance to cover you incase you get really sick again." at which point i go into auto-pissed mode and i'm like well why the hell would i spend 11,000 on this and then just quit in two years?! and he's like "well i want you to be happy and i think this is the perfect job for you so i want you to do it but no one will cover you and you getting sick can completely bankrupt us and i'm not doing that so you'll need a real job."
I know he's right but i really really hate being the bubble girl sometimes and I don't know what to do. I really want to do this but the idea of being forced to quit so i can go scrub toilets just sucks, I haven't been able to pass a civil service test and I don't really like kids and I might be able to get into the fire department but i struggled on the volunteer physical and they rarely rarely hire. anyone else stuck in a job they hate because of sickness or disability?
mods I realize this isn't exactly riding related either but it is a horse career :/