Feeling like a bad owner...
I am almost 100% sure I'm anthropromophising(sp?) a bit here, but I felt like such an awful person when I left the barn last night.
I have 2 horses. Goober is my long time buddy, who I've decided to do right by and find him a home doing what he loves full time. Brolio is my new OTTB who looks like he's going to fit the bill as a competitive event horse. Goobs lives outside 24/7 at the boarding barn with 2 nice turnout sheds. Bro is stalled overnight, but gets plenty of day turnout.
Unfortunately, Goober is now the only gelding on turnout board. He does have plenty of buddies during the day and has 2 mares across the fenceline that stay out overnight, but he's alone at night. BO says he's adjusted well, nothing to be worried about. I cannot afford stall board for both at this time, plus Goobs is much happier out. I would happily toss Bro out with him except, Bro gets 2lbs of grain 2x/day and Goobs gets ~1/2lb 1x/day(air fern type). Goobs will also push a less dominant horse off their grain if he gets done first, Bro is very much bottom man in the field. BO does not want to bring in Bro for grain and then turn back out, which I understand.
So last night was the first time I personally turned Goober out after a ride and after all the other horses were turned in for the night. As I shut the gate, he just kinda stood there and eventually walked off into the darkness in search of actual grass even though both hay feeders were fully stocked. I just felt like a terrible parent, letting him go off alone... He's a tough little horse, my front brain knows he won't die, but that little niggling part bothers me.