Liver failure boy is at it again
(before anyone digs up my old thread and corrects me, because he only had high liver enzymes, understand that I know that, but one of the things I say to explain it to non horse people/horse people who have no idea what an enzyme is is that basically his liver was on its way to failing)
But I think we're looking at the end this time. It happened so fast... First time he got sick we had a couple weeks where we just couldn't figure it out yet he never looked this bad.
He was fine Thursday, trotting around and happy, Friday he was staggering with a 105.2 fever and no idea how long he'd had it that day before we caught it, but we got it down within the hour and he was still normal on Saturday, and then yesterday 103.5 again, got it down again and had the vet out today...
He just looks so bad. The vet took more blood to do some blood work but his owner and I did agree after the first vet stay - no more expensive treatment, it's not fair to him to keep him alive and miserable (which he is any time he gets a fever). I'm pretty sure it is his liver again, he's stretching to pee and dropping but not peeing, when he did it was only a little and pretty dark. Neither I nor the vet could get a temp on him today because the muscles around his rectum are so loose (which was not like that yesterday, another sign I think we're near the end).
He's inside with two fans on him, happily munching on hay and still drinking water... I know I can't afford to try to work any miracles here, and neither can his owner. He'd been doing so good, plenty of energy, gaining his weight back and then BOOM, in one day it all fell apart. Heart breaking, and he's a whole 8 flipping years old. Barely 8. I only got to ride him a few times after he turned 8, just lightly bareback around in the arena once the vet said I could start riding him lightly again.
I'm still trying to maintain some hope, he's not dehydrated and he's still comfortable looking, if very lethargic, but... I don't know how fair it is to put him through the DMSO over and over again in his life even if we COULD afford it. Not very fair at all. He's miserable.
He's going to call me with the results of the blood work in the morning but unless we are miraculously looking at some other disease or condition (not likely) its better to put him down after a short happy life than try to prolong this. Or that's what I keep telling myself anyway.
In my head little girls first horses live to be 30 years old and teach their children to ride, not die after one year of free leasing, halfway to being given full ownership of said horse. It's been the best year and almost a half of my life, having him there to get me through all the drama of my junior year of college, and I have him to thank for that, even though I'd prefer he pull through an
d be a pretty pasture pet for me to thank for the rest of his life.
Still eating, still drinking, but I have my doubts and a heavy heart.
I'm so sorry ~ Jingles for strength ~
I am SO sorry ~
Jingles of strength and patience ~
((hugs)) for all who love this gelding ~