I have nerve damage. Update: Let me tell you me tale of woe #230
I'm facing a major surgery this Tuesday to fix nerve damage caused by 5 other surgeries I had due to other pain.
3 nerves in my abdominal wall are a lost cause and they are just going to cut them. The 4th is my Obturator nerve and I've lost nearly all function in my left leg. One doc starts at one end of it and the other starts at the other. They meet in the middle and hopefully discover what is crushing it.
This is a very rare surgery and I have 2 top neurosurgeons. They tell me that it could take a year and maybe never for me to ride again. I may also still have pain.
I'm devastated by this. I have not been able to ride since August 2011 and I made it 2 days before I relapsed. Before that, I had not ridden since Sept. 2010. I have a young horse who is bored and spending her prime years standing in a field. Since, she's a Paso Fino, I can't even find anyone who I can pay to ride her right. So she sits like a dream that is just out of reach.
There's no question that I must have this surgery because I can't drive, work, or even pick my horse's feet due to pain. I try to be optimistic, but when I picture my life with no riding, it just seems so depressing.
I don't know anyone who's had nerve damage so I have no one to talk with. I'm just here venting and giving myself a pity party.