Worst day ever: Fargo coliced and I lost him [Archive]

fargo

Oct. 17, 2005, 08:55 AM

Thank you all. He was such a sweetheart. I got him 8,5 years ago when he was almost 10 and I almost 30. I had asked for a horse of about 1.68 cm and was showed a horse of 1.74 cm who was scared and impressed by the environment. He was BIG. But I was in love, his eyes were the gentlest, brightest, feeling eyes. After 2 visits he knew me and after 1 or 2 more he was mine and I was his. He wasn't the easiest to ride at first, no muscles in the right spots and a lot of muscles in the wrong spots, long back, long neck and no condition. But very willing to try and eager to please. We taught eachother a lot and he trusted me and I could always rely on him. During this last year we went on the road a lot because of his injury. We went out during the evening in total darkness on a busy road and he always just trusted my judgement and I felt safe on his back eventhough cars or motors would come crashing by. He wasn't scared as long as I was there to lead him.
On thursday night I had a half hour lesson and both my instructor and I were pleased to bits. He was doing great, in walk and trot and canter. I finished with a left canter that felt like he used to and felt so GLAD and Happy. I talked to a newby at our stables while I hosed his legs and she was impressed by how incredibly good he was. WE talked about how I would and could never sell him eventhough he had his problems with ringbone etc. She said she could imagine that..

Next morning 0330 I get a wake up call about Fargo colicking. They were already walking him. He laid down a lot. I set to please put him in a paddock so he could choose whether he wanted to walk or lay down. I called vet and went there. Feeling very anxious because he never ever had a colic before and just isnt a colicky horse so to speak. (Jeez this is getting long..)
The injection seemed to work, vet wasn't very worried. After the injections He was calm, almost too calm. After 2 hours I took him to his stable where I left him sleeping and called vet whether he could be too calm??
No, called again after BO said he was good but a bit quiet compared to his normal self. If he wasn't colicky it was alright. They would visit later on. At 11:00 he was not alright, kicking, looking at belly, walking around at a high speed, laying down etc. Phoned vet again, went there, met other vet from clinic who checked him with tube, little result. Internal check and gave him oil. After the oil, fargo really started hitting with his front legs hard. I had to walk him to get things going the vet said. So I walked and put him in a paddock and walked and put him in paddock to check how he would be. Every time he stopped walking he started pawing so vigourously it was scary. He didn't stop pawing if you stopped walking. He would walk against me in the paddock and stand before me and would push me and paw at me and only stopped if I took him walking again.
At 2 we decided to go to the local clinic. The injections given there did not help, not even a bit. Extra injection, no good. Another stronger injection, held for 20 minutes. I felt so bad for him. Blood was not good, getting thicker. He was tubed and checked again. Belly was scanned for fluids, there was a lot of fluid but still bright yellow so not beyond point of no operation. Cried a lot by then because I had such a bad feeling about the whole thing, I was alone there because BO had dropped me off and had to go back and Martin (Boy friend) had gone to work far away when situation was still looking ok. Called Martin and friend from stables quite hysterically to come and get me and fargo as soon as possible because things were not right and I had to get to Utrecht. They came as soon as possible and we went. There was a lot of traffic because of accidents and holiday starting. A trip from hell really. When we got there it was about 19.30 I don't know.. Fargo was shivering and completely covered in sweat and so cold. He was tubed yet again and they took sample of the blood (I only heard later that is was just like sirup and no value was normal anymore). The sample of the fluids in his belly were not yellow anymore. They took several little cups and held it under the drip. The first one was pink and I really wanted to faint or anything because that meant blood, the next and the next were bloody and brown and further samples showed green components which was horribly not good. I had a lot of moments during this day with bad forecasting feelings but this really was the end. They cannot operate when the belly is already infected and dirty. The vet told me his body was in shock already and the only thing she could do was end it. I was with him when he died, I saw him fall over and sat and wept by his side. And I'm just so sad that I couldn't have him around for the years I planned him to have. I did everything I could and I just couldn't save him. That's something at least. Today they would try to find out what actually went wrong, what triggered it. And I can call tomorrow for the information. Everyone at my stables is flabbergasted just as I am and together with them I can weep. (I don't weep easily normally, but with peopl who knew him I can).

Plumcreek

Oct. 17, 2005, 09:05 AM

I am so sorry. Many of us have been there. We know how you feel.

ChocoMare

Oct. 17, 2005, 09:07 AM

Just got a chance to see your pics of Fargo. My word! He was huge!!! What a sweet, kind eye to him.

Having lost my app, Star, in March I understand the pain of such a loss. There's no denying that it stinks big time.

How wonderful for you both, that you had so many good years together. Treasure those memories.

((((((((((((((((( Big Hugs ))))))))))))))))

Brio

Oct. 17, 2005, 09:10 AM

So sorry.

glad you have people with you to support and cry with during this rough time.

Amwrider

Oct. 17, 2005, 09:22 AM

My Cleo is already there and will meet him with nickers and a mutual grooming.

(((hugs)))

Seahorsefarmtobe

Oct. 17, 2005, 09:35 AM

http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/sadsmile.gif
Rainbow Bridge
Just this side of heaven is a place called Rainbow Bridge.

When an animal dies that has been especially close to someone here, that pet goes to Rainbow Bridge.
There are meadows and hills for all of our special friends so they can run and play together.
There is plenty of food, water and sunshine, and our friends are warm and comfortable.

All the animals who had been ill and old are restored to health and vigor; those who were hurt or maimed are made whole and strong again, just as we remember them in our dreams of days and times gone by.
The animals are happy and content, except for one small thing; they each miss someone very special to them, who had to be left behind.

They all run and play together, but the day comes when one suddenly stops and looks into the distance. His bright eyes are intent; His eager body quivers. Suddenly he begins to run from the group, flying over the green grass, his legs carrying him faster and faster.

You have been spotted, and when you and your special friend finally meet, you cling together in joyous reunion, never to be parted again. The happy kisses rain upon your face; your hands again caress the beloved head, and you look once more into the trusting eyes of your pet, so long gone from your life but never absent from your heart.

Then you cross Rainbow Bridge together....

Author unknown...

Monarch

Oct. 17, 2005, 09:40 AM

Fargo, I am so very sorry to read about the loss of your much loved horse http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/cry.gif
with sympathy,
M

Gunnar

Oct. 17, 2005, 09:52 AM

Fargo, I am so sorry. Godspeed to your big boy. Gunnar is there to greet him and they are off to have some good fun. I just lost him 40 days ago and my heart still aches. I wish there was more I could say to ease your pain but only time and life will make you feel better.

I took a look at Fargo and he was too cute. My favorite a big plain bay just like my Gunnar. Good things come in plain wrappers.

Hugs to you from Bodie and I! You did the best you could for your Fargo http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/sadsmile.gif

Coreene

Oct. 17, 2005, 10:13 AM

Oh Francis. I am so, so, so very sorry. I know how you loved Fargo, he was just the greatest. I was so happy when you brought your photo album to Haarlem so that I could see the handsome photos of him and Whizard. I am absolutely in tears right now, I feel so bad for you. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/cry.gif Fargo was so blessed to have had you as his "moeder," you gave him the life of a king.

I cannot remember if I saw this poem on COTH or somewhere else, but I have saved it because I thought it was so touching:

Remember Me

When you hear the thunder
remember me
for those are my hoofbeats
upon your heart
deep in the night.

Do not fear the lightning
and remember me
for my hooves strike sparks
so you may see
in your darkest hour.

And when the rain falls
remember me
for those are my tears of joy
as I run with the sky herd
free of rein and pain and heavy burden.

Look up and remember me
for you will see the shape of my
fiery head thrown high
among the clouds,
warmed by sun but even more
because you remember me.

R.D. Miller
San Francisco, CA
March 26, 2004

BBer Merry shared this Emily Dickinson poem with me about four years ago; it is one of her favorites and it touches my heart as well:

HOPE

Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in my soul.
And sings the tune without the words
And never stops at all.

And sweetest in the gale is heard;
And sorest is the storm
That could abash this little bird
That kept so many warm.

I've heard it in the chillest land
And on the strangest sea;
Yet never in extremity
It asked a crumb of me.

Lieve Francis, gecondoleert, en veel sterkte, ook voor Whizard en Willy. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/sadsmile.gif You know they will give you a loving shoulder to cry on. In het foto geeft Ollie een jingle voor jou.

Arado

Oct. 17, 2005, 10:15 AM

So sorry for your loss.I think you were lucky to have had one another.Godspeed.

physio2t

Oct. 17, 2005, 10:37 AM

I'm so sorry to hear this.

pegasus209

Oct. 17, 2005, 10:43 AM

I am so sorry.. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/cry.gif Rest in peace, Fargo.

fargo

Oct. 17, 2005, 10:48 AM

Oh my, am crying now (alone at work) thank you Gunnar, plain is beautiful I agree(but it's not always the taste of the judges, I noticed that too in the past http://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_frown.gifhttp://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/no.gif, well they don't know what they are missing)
Oh Coreene I sent you a sms on your mobile during the weekend, but didn't know if you would get it. (You are too far away!) Thank you for the lovely poem especially the first one is beautiful and moved me (to tears but that's good). When we came home on 22:30 hours Whizard whinnied his loud happy "there you are at last" whinny. He and Willy will help me find some comfort. Thank you for the jingles.
Thank you for the story of the bridge, I knew it but it changes when it's for your horse..

2DogsFarm

Oct. 17, 2005, 10:52 AM

So sorry fargo {hugs}
You did all you could and now he has no more pain.
My Buddy is waiting for Fargo so he can show him the pastures over the Rainbow Bridge

Kim

Oct. 17, 2005, 11:09 AM

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/cry.gif

The Rainbow Bridge for Horses

By the edge of a woods, at the foot of a hill,
is a lush, green meadow where time stands still.
Where the friends of man and woman do run,
when their time on earth is over and done.

For here, between this world and the next,
is a place where beloved equines find rest.
On this golden land, they wait and they play,
’til The Rainbow Bridge they cross over one day.

No more do they suffer, in pain or in sadness,
for here they are whole, their lives filled with gladness.
Their limbs are restored, their health renewed.
Their bodies have healed with strength imbued.

They trot through the grass without even a care,
’til one day they whinny and sniff at the air.
All ears prick forward, eyes sharp and alert.
Then all of a sudden, one breaks from the herd.

For just at that second, there's no room for remorse.
As they see each other ... one person ... one horse.
So they run to each other, these friends from long past
The time of their parting is over at last.

The sadness they felt while they were apart
has turned to joy once more in each heart.
They nuzzle with a love that will last forever.
And then, side-by-side, they cross over ... together.

Author Unknown

BarbB

Oct. 17, 2005, 11:11 AM

I'm so sorry http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/cry.gif

Coreene

Oct. 17, 2005, 11:43 AM

Oh Francis. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/cry.gif

You are right, m'n Nederlands mobiel gaat niet in California. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/no.gif Anders hat ik jou een SMS terug gestuurd.

The next time I am in Holland, I will come to Rotterdam to see Whizard and Willy, and we will give Fargo a big PROST FARGO with a pilsje. Of twee. http://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_wink.gif Sterkte!

Sobriska

Oct. 17, 2005, 01:58 PM

So very sorryhttp://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_frown.gif

sdfarm

Oct. 17, 2005, 02:37 PM

So sorry for your loss.

RealityCheck

Oct. 17, 2005, 05:45 PM

I am so very sorry for your loss, losing a horse is one of the most painful things that can happen to a person. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/cry.gif

fargo

Oct. 18, 2005, 02:04 AM

Thank you all for your kind words. Yesterday I called both my good friend (who is called Corina; http://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_wink.gif to make things "more" clear) who lost her mare 4 years ago and was called by my ex byrider who still visits us regularly on tuesday and I was a bit scared that she would walk in today and find him just not there. Those were heavy talks, both were shocked as was to be expected. I cried but not as much as I would want to (I am of the sign cancer and I tend to put a mask on my feeling which is both a blessing and a curse at this time). And I went to the stables to Willy and Whizard. Whizard knows there is something wrong, he was the one smelling fargo's droppings on the terrain and whinnying to the empty meadows (for him??) Yesterday evening I saw the person spoke to on thursday about never parting with Fargo etc and we both cried and were sad. I'm still a bit in a stunned daze; I guess it's just shock. In a minute I have to call Utrecht to learn what was the cause of all this mess. Their line is busy all the time. Grrrrr.

FifteenOne

Oct. 18, 2005, 05:06 AM

I am so very very sorry for your loss.

fargo

Oct. 18, 2005, 06:09 AM

I called Utrecht today and they told me his stomach ruptured in the end. They found no other reason to indicate why his stomach would be full or not working properly. They checked for other impactions to hinder the processes following the stomach but found none. They found a lot of dried food in his stomach. She said I couldn't have done anything about that and couldn't have prevented it. Oh my poor baby, he must have hurt so bad! They found the hay and carrots of the evening before so his stomach had managed near to nothing during that night and day. She indicated again that because of all this his body was in shock already when he arrived in Utrecht. All fluids were directed to his belly leaving nothing for the rest of his body and resulting in shock. My poor gentle and brave horse. He tried so hard and felt so bad during the whole day.

Holly Jeanne

Oct. 18, 2005, 07:01 AM

That's so sad. I'm so so sorry for you. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/cry.gif

marta

Oct. 18, 2005, 07:09 AM

im so sorry... http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/cry.gif

Instant Karma

Oct. 18, 2005, 08:02 AM

I am so very sorry for your losshttp://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_frown.gif

jetjocky

Oct. 18, 2005, 08:20 AM

What a sweet face. I know you'll miss him. http://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_frown.gif

WonderPony

Oct. 18, 2005, 11:44 AM

That just sucks.

I'm so sorry.

WP

ChocoMare

Oct. 18, 2005, 11:57 AM

Aw Fargo http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/cry.gif I've seen a horse go down from the exact same thing and, they were right, there's nothing that could have been done: except what you did--gave him the gift of a quiet crossing over The Bridge.

You just lean on us and Willy. We'll see you through. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/sadsmile.gif

Gunnar

Oct. 18, 2005, 04:56 PM

Fargo,my thoughts still remian with you and your plain brown boy. I hope you are feeling a little better today. My own experience is that time will pass quickly and the 1 month anniversary will seem like it happened much longer ago. In month 2 I have many, many happy Gunnar memories and my tears flow less and less. Those tears are now smiles most of the time. Your Fargo will be forever in your life thru the grest experiences you had.

My Plain Boy is over that Bridge with Fargo showing all those pretty flashy boys with chrome that they are the real winners in our lifes. I still tell my flashy Bodie you ain't no Gunnar but he loves me
anyway.

Hugs to a stranger from across the world!

tikihorse

Oct. 18, 2005, 07:08 PM

I'm so, so sorry you lost your boy. Many hugs to you.

Kim

fargo

Oct. 18, 2005, 11:56 PM

First of all, thanks again for your support, it helps. Yes, Chocomare, it really is a cruel thing; the fact that you can do nothing about it to help; only to end the pain and suffering. Yesterday I told my BO that I want Whizard to move into Fargo's box (there is now an empty box inbetween Willy and Whizard and it doesn't seem right ). A friend who lost her mare advised me to take the box myself because she had a hard time coping with "a strange" horse in her mare's place. I think I agree and in this way Willy and Whizard can comfort eachother. Willy had Fargo as a friend and neighbour for 8,5 years.
Oh Gunnar, your gunnar is so much like Fargo. I don't have any digital jumping pics but Fargo was a jumper originally (the first 5 years of his life) and he loved to jump, clearly his Ramiro Z genes showing. What blood lines did Gunnar have?

fargo

Oct. 19, 2005, 02:51 AM

A story and why I know he is so loyal, brave and trusting. I think it was 4 or 5 years ago on the first day of x-mash it was windy and rainy and Martin and I both went out for a ride because the arena was really bad. He went one way, I went another way on a little road that I hadn't ridden on before. Fargo was doing great, we trotted and cantered and went to the end of the road. At that point you have a bicycle tunnel underneath the big St Claus Plein which is a crossing of major high ways. He just went into the tunnel which is long and dark and he heard his own steps around him, but he kept on walking anyway. We went through the tunnel and the one following it. I was soooo proud that he would do that for me. We turned around and went through on the way back home. As we came out of the second tunnel the wind had turned really heavy and it was raining again. On this specific road there was a new industry park opening and they had put up 5 or more major flags really high so you could see them from the highways. Those flags were now making a lot of noise. And they were blowing wildly in the wind. Fargo just wanted to go home and started trotting and later on wanted to canter. I knew we would pass a little bridge later on and Fargo normally dislikes bridges so I let him canter "knowing" that I would be able to take him back in time. BUT he wouldn't stop, we cantered on grass and after PASSING the bridge cantering or better galloping he went on, onTO the bicycle road. Well I didn't think that a good idea at all but he just wouldn't stop. So I decided I would redirect him to the grass/ground on the left to stop him or canter on grass instead of on a road. I put him to the left and his front legs were on the ground and his hind legs were still on the road and he SLIPPED with his hind legs on the wet road. We went DOWN. He lay on my left foot/leg/hip for what was like 5 seconds (my face scratched the road) and then he stood again. Shivering and ready to start running home again. I still lay on the ground and asked him to stay. All his legs and knees were PINK without any hair on them and he was really shaky. He waited for me. I could cry, because of the scare of the fall, because he looked just awful, because I hurt really bad AND because he waited for me! I thought we'd walk home together but I couldn't my whole left side just hurt so badly. So I had to get on. I got on and in a second he wanted to be off again. I stopped him in an instant, how I don't remember. We went home walking and I wept vigourously the whole way back. A very mixed day, but in my memory his loyalty and trust (to go through the tunnels and to wait for me and stop after I got on again and bring me home shocked and all) stand out.

Eleanor

Oct. 19, 2005, 09:59 AM

Oh fargo, I am so sorry this has not been a good year with so many of us losing loved ones. I am still getting over having to put Urymate down. I know he was at The Bridge to meet Fargo.

Sancudo

Oct. 19, 2005, 12:21 PM

I'm so sorry!

October seems to be cursed month. I remember responding to another sad story like this a week ago. Tomorrow is the 2 year anniversary of my Breeze's death. My friend just lost his mare last week. My sympathies are with you.

BasqueMom

Oct. 19, 2005, 11:45 PM

Fargo,

Condolences and may Godspeed Fargo over the bridge where my Fudgeman waits. Hugs!!!!

Gunnar

Oct. 20, 2005, 11:06 AM

<BLOCKQUOTE class="ip-ubbcode-quote"><div class="ip-ubbcode-quote-title">quote:</div><div class="ip-ubbcode-quote-content">Originally posted by fargo:
Oh Gunnar, your gunnar is so much like Fargo. I don't have any digital jumping pics but Fargo was a jumper originally (the first 5 years of his life) and he loved to jump, clearly his Ramiro Z genes showing. What blood lines did Gunnar have? </div></BLOCKQUOTE>

fargo, hope today is better than yesterday. Your tale of Fargo made me cry but at this point I cry pretty easily.

Believe it or not Gunnar was a QH, born and bred in Washington. At 16'3 he was a freak of nature but he was my dream horse as an Adult. Gunnar is showing Fargo how to jump in case he forgot. I too had Gunnar for 8 and 1/2 years, during which time he went from young to old, sound to lame, healthy to incontinent http://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_eek.gif but thru it all he remained my Gunnar, faithful to the end. I will always love him as you will your Fargo.

Hugs again from Bodie and I. Keep the tales coming as they make us all feel better while we cry with you http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/sadsmile.gif

17handtb

Oct. 20, 2005, 11:11 AM

My deepest condolences on the loss of your magnificent Fargo. A sweet dark bay TB named Star - who left this world the exact same way 2 1/2 years ago - will be at the bridge to greet him.

**Hugs**

mygenie

Oct. 20, 2005, 12:08 PM

Fargo, gecondoleerd...sorry dat ik zo laat ben. Ik wens je alle, alle sterkte. Wat een afschuwelijk verlies.

Debbie

blueboo

Oct. 20, 2005, 12:36 PM

I just found this thread - I'm so very sorry.....

mbj

Oct. 20, 2005, 02:24 PM

I am so sorry for this loss. What a tragidy.Thinking of you and Fargo.

Jakeable

Oct. 20, 2005, 05:47 PM

So very sorry for your loss. He sounds like a wonderful friend. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/sadsmile.gif

fargo

Oct. 21, 2005, 12:52 AM

Memories:
In the first week that I had Fargo I came at the stables and the horses were outside in a big group in the arena. In our herd at that time there were 2 important mares Iris and Fruhling, one the alpha mare, the other her friend and a lesser alpha mare but still. And Willy and Bruno, both really together leading our group as geldings but behaving like stallions in holding the group together and managing them. I walked to the arena just to check them out. In the middle of the arena was Fargo, he saw me and I saw him react with his body: THAT's my human!! I was so suprised that he looked at me that way so soon already. So Fargo wanted to come to me. BUT all these other horses that were really above him in rank were at the gate "telling" with body and signlanguage http://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_biggrin.gif that he was not supposed or allowed to stand or come there. Fargo wandered around and behind horses for 5 or 10 minutes and then he was at the gate! And he was so pleased with himself that he had managed to get there anyway and I was so touched that he felt me to be his human already after such a short period!

Another one, at our old stables as well. In the summer the horses were in the fields at the barn. In the evening they would be brought in together through the fields most of the time they would walk, but sometimes they would come running in. A sweet sight. Fargo would normally be in the back, what will all those alpha creatures around and Bruno always attacking him from behind, he would not risk that. Until the moment one summer that he would see me standing at the gate waiting to get the horses in. He would trot or canter in front zooming in on me, keeping eye contact and looking back to be sure he was "free" of any attacks. There he would be running into my arms. Trusting me to get him off safe and behind the gate before anyone would get at him for being the first (and out of rank at that!!). Or protect them if they would be closing in at the gate. On the evenings that he would do that I would laugh and beam with pride at his braveness to ignore his fears and just RUN to me!

Gunnar

Oct. 21, 2005, 04:56 PM

fargo, I love to hear your tales of Fargo. He sounds so very precious and full of personality. It seems you were his savior at times. Horses trusting humans is what we all strive for and it seems this is what you achieved.

Hope you are getting better.

Hugs again from Bodie and I!

_Wallysfolley_

Oct. 22, 2005, 07:02 AM

I'm terribly sorry for your loss http://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_frown.gif. Lucas and I send hugs.

Leena

Oct. 22, 2005, 08:02 AM

Fargo, I just found out about this tragic news. I am very sorry for you http://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_frown.gif

Loosing your partner just like this is terrible; I send you big hugs ...

DressageGeek "Ribbon Ho"

Oct. 22, 2005, 10:06 AM

Fargo - I just saw this...I cry for your loss.

Your stories are wonderful...even across so many miles, I can envision the two of you, and your bond. No one can ever take that away.

afrikando

Oct. 22, 2005, 09:45 PM

i'm so sorry fargo. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/cry.gif my greyhound truman was waiting for him at the bridge.

Rest in peace, Fargo.

EBO

Oct. 23, 2005, 09:30 PM

I'm so sorry for your loss. We lost one to colic long ago, and I still remember every minute of her battle.

Blessings to you both.

fargo

Oct. 24, 2005, 07:39 AM

Thanks guys, you're great. Another memory.
Whe took jumping lessons when I had him for a year or less. He wasn't all that fast yet in dressage but we would have a few jumps in the arena where we went to and after a few test jumps we were allowed to take them all. Fargo would just go off and jump them all in a very high canter tempo and would lay almost flat in the corners (at least it felt like that). People would be very astounded and wowed. He jumped well and really came to life. Dressage just wasn't his thing (yet). It would suprise me too off course, him being this very easy going boy and all. But jumping changed him. (Off course the lessons were about taking the jumps in a normal and safer fashion in a basic canter http://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_biggrin.gif http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/uhoh.gif)

After he had a tendon sheath problem in his left hind leg I didn't jump him for a very long time and expected never to be able to ever again. We were still recovering and trotting and cantering a bit in the arena where someone else was lounging a young horse. She left a few of the really ultra low cavaletti there, after asking me whether I minded. No I didn't, I could ride around them, no problem. After cantering a while in voltes and around the cavaletti, at one point fargo started to gallop really hard, turn right in the direction of one of the mini cavaletti (and acting like "you ARE NOT going to stop me from doing this") and he jumped the cavaletti starting off 2 meters before and landing widely afterwards. He had his jump (his fix) and was very very pleased with himself. He made a major jump out of a really tiny cavaletti (not 25 or 30 cm high I think). I couldn't be mad at him, he had missed it so much apparently. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/sadsmile.gif

beausgirl

Oct. 24, 2005, 02:40 PM

I am so sorry Fargo. God speed.

fargo

Oct. 25, 2005, 12:56 AM

I tend to find myself crying behind the wheel of my car. A song triggers a memory or just thinking a bit does. I was thinking about making a card for my friends and his friends and thought about putting on a picture of him as a youngster, running along with his mother. Next to a picture of him cantering in the field this year. And the thought of him as a youngster and now nolonger here just really really cracked me up from nowhere.
Yesterday I was driving along and thinking about calling the farrier because Willy's feet need to be done and the thought of having to explain to him that fargo's not part of our little group of horses anymore was enough to start me off.
Songs like: You just call out my name, and you know wherever I am I'll come running to see you again... are just way too much. Because I'd come running, but I think he would as well.

Declaring

Oct. 25, 2005, 08:21 AM

Jeez this thread is just breaking my heart. I'm at work doing this http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/cry.gif and am just lucky I've been left on my own for a while to bawl to my hearts content. I am so so sorry. Such a terrible loss of such a dear horse. I've looked as his pics- he was so beautiful. http://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_frown.gif

Gunnar

Oct. 25, 2005, 03:37 PM

fargo, yes songs will bring one to tears. A few weeks ago I put out a thread for support as I was working late and listening to Country music and it made me sad for my Gunnar. You know that music is the path to our souls. The car is also a sad place. You are by yourself, a song comes on, you have a Fargo thought and you have tears. I have been there done that so do not feel alone.

Hope your days are getting easier. Mine are getting easier but I still have my moments. Today has been rough but I am not sure why. I even picked up his tail hair this morning for comfort. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/sadsmile.gif A couple days ago I had a phone call from the Company I got Gunnar's SMZ's from. They wanted to know if I needed my order filled as I had it set up to be done every 37.5 days. I have not called them back but it did make me sad again to get the call.

my thoughts are still with you! http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/cry.gif http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/sadsmile.gif

Carol Ames

Oct. 25, 2005, 10:48 PM

I am so very sorry may he have a swift, and easy transition, It has bensix years since my beloved Mrry Meeting crossed over, she sends back reports ttatit is very nice there, and,e she has lots of suppotrt. I'm sure that's true also of Fargo. It is so terribly difficult consider yourself hugged.

fargo

Oct. 26, 2005, 03:05 AM

I really really long for a carefree ride. Have talked to my old riding school and will ride there on friday. The last two years were not that carefree because of the tendon injury and the discovery of the ringbone e.a problems in his frontlegs. So when you ride you are always scanning your horse for problems; does he walk right, am I not asking too much, etc. And when you ride somebody else's horse you are also trying to please them; so that's not really carefree and you ARE thinking about your own horse waiting for your attention (which is now no longer the case off course http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/sadsmile.gif). And I DO want to be ready to ride little Whizard in a few months time to the best of my abilities!! Yesterday a better day: no tears and got to hang on Whizards back for 3 times in a row during brush time.

mbj

Oct. 26, 2005, 03:36 AM

Sending love your way.Thank-you so much for the stories of Fargo.

fargo

Oct. 27, 2005, 01:03 AM

Fargo always was very sweet and attentive to other animals. Dogs could stand before his box and get breathed on, sniffed on and touched by his nose and mouth. On our other stables they had a ram (a male sheep??) and after and before he was allowed with his herd to perform so to speak he would be underneath fargo's open window in a little field for weeks at at row. You would often find the ram being nuzzled and cuddled by fargo. He would stand or sleep underneath the window just in reach of eachother. That was about 3 years ago at least.
Not so long ago (a month or so) I was riding in the dark on the road back to our ("new") stables. On the right you have an older farmhouse. Fargo was startled to see something nearby in the field against some bushes. So I say oh it's a ram just like Dirk, you know, don't you remember?? (I talked to and with Fargo a lot; I talk to all my horses to explain things and to steer them). At which Fargo walks to the right into the little lane leading to the farm and goes up to the unknown ram to sniff at him leaning over the bushes. I was touched, he remembered and wanted to see and touch the animal.

fargo

Oct. 31, 2005, 06:30 AM

Thursday evening I hoped I wouldn't wake up at 03:30 in the morning just like the week before remembering the start of Fargo's colic. Well I shouldn't have bothered as it happened I witnessed something really horrible and went to bed really late because of a visit to the police station. No good sleep but really little thought or time for Fargo left.
I was on the balcony calling and looking for my cat to come in. Then it happened. A series of explosions went on in one of the apartments opposite (behind our garden and the gardens lying next to them). I saw the explosions going through the apartment it was lit up with yellow/read light 5 times or even more. I saw a blue light and after maximal 2 minutes it stopped. There was a lot of smoke and the rooms and windows were dark. I dialled 112, went out to check whether they came and people would be alright. Well they were not; they got two people out while I was there: a man who died later on during the night with lots of burns and a woman who is heavily wounded in a center were they treat burns. I told police and firemen that I saw it and called in. They wanted my statement noted down. So at 01:30 we were back home (I asked Martin to come with me).
My emotions are just used up. No more crying over here. I would want to but don't seem to be able to..
Whizard has been great in supporting me. He had a saddle on on saturday and marched around with it during our walk, not bothering at all, the sweetheart.
Heard a song (by Phil Collins) this morning in the car,really felt right:

You'll be in my heart
Yes, you'll be in my heart
From this day on
Now and forever more

Oh you'll be in my heart
No matter what they say
You'll be in my heart,
always and always..

Gunnar

Oct. 31, 2005, 10:52 AM

fargo, gosh how awful for you to see and deal with this. When Gunnar died was right during the Hurrican Katrina debacle and my emotions were on overload anyway. I was even watching Million Dollar Baby when I got the call so I was already in tears.

Since then the tears have flowed. Now we are approaching the 2 month anniversary but my thoughts are mostly alright. Gunnar is in my heart forever but now I try to smile when I think of him http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/sadsmile.gif

It is so hard to deal with theses types of emotions. You continue to be in my thoughts and I hope whizard can bring you some comfort in the coming days!!

Prieta

Oct. 31, 2005, 11:10 AM

(((((((((((Hugs))))))))))))))))))

Whizard's shoulder looks very comforting for many consolation hugs.

(((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))

Kim

Oct. 31, 2005, 11:31 AM

Thank you for sharing your stories of Fargo. I wish there was something we could do to make you feel better. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/sadsmile.gif

((hugs))

Kim

mygenie

Oct. 31, 2005, 12:21 PM

Wow, Fargo...I don't know what to say. This is such a difficult time for you! My thoughts are still with you...
I think sharing Fargo's memories here is theraputic for you ...I get tears in my eyes reading them and imagining how very much you are hurting.
After I first read about Fargo's passing I went to my mare and told her how very, very much I love her and how very grateful I am to have her...

Bugs-n-Frodo

Oct. 31, 2005, 06:13 PM

Oh No! I just found your thread and I am so sorry! Godspeed Fargo, RIP good boy!

Please, feel free to send me a PT if you need to talk. I am not on COTH as much as I used to be, but I check my messages. It may take me a couple days to get back to you, but I will, I PORMISE! I am so sorry and HUGS to you. I wish I had something magical to say that would make you feel better.

fargo

Nov. 4, 2005, 01:11 AM

Today it's been a month. Last night is the first night that I didn't wake up at 03:30 in the morning. What a relief. This week I sent a lot of family and non horsey friends a picture mail of fargo and a short story on what happened. In this way I don't have to tell everybody and especially the non horsey ones. It would be hard to see someone not interested. In this way I update them without having to face them. I rather talk about it with horsey friends or mail them. They know how important this is. So this weekend I will order the spectacular canter picture of Fargo made during the start of the summer to be multiplied on a larger format and send it to people that are/were dear to me or fargo. In that way I can thank them for their support and care through the years and give them something to remember him by. The people who brought me and him to the clinic will get a nice frame around it.
Whizard has moved into fargo's box. At the barn I don't really miss him strangely enough. That's because Whizard is really asking all my attention in a very positive way.
The explosion I witnessed last week has turned out to be a felony. The women in question has poured something(unknown yet) on the man and set him on fire! And got badly hurt herself as well. She is still in a coma. This has been on my mind a lot as well.
At work I laugh more, so it seems to be going in the right direction.

PamZ

Nov. 4, 2005, 02:22 AM

Fargo, I only recently joined COH so just read about this. I hope I am not reopening old wounds to tell you how sorry I am for your loss. I wanted to add this poem that has helped me more than once over the years as well as a couple of friends.

MY GRANDEST FOAL

I'll lend you for a little while
My grandest foal, He said.
For you to love while he's alive
And mourn for when he's dead.
It may be one or twenty years,
Or days or months , you see.
But, will you, till I take him back,
Take care of him for me?
He'll bring his charms to gladden you,
And should his stay be brief,
You'll have treasured memories
As solace for your grief.
I cannot promise he will stay,
Since all from earth return.
But, there are lessons taught on earth
I want this foal to learn.
I've looked the wide world over
In my search for teachers true.
And from the throngs that crowd life's lanes,
With trust, I have selected you.
Now will you give him your total love?
Nor think the labor vain,
Nor hate Me when I come
To take him back again?
I know you'll give him tenderness
And love will bloom each day.
And for the happiness you've known,
Forever grateful stay.
But should I come and call for him
Much sooner than you'd planned
You'll brave the bitter grief that comes
And someday you'll understand.
For though I'll call him home to Me
This promise to you I do make,
For all the love and care you gave
He'll wait for you, inside Heaven's Gate.

fargo

Nov. 4, 2005, 02:53 AM

PamZ don't worry. I LOVE the poem. I sent it about half a year back to a friend of mine who lost her old mare then. It brought me to tears then but it was written in the female form and I couldn't bring myself to rewrite it myself. So thank you very much for "doing" that job for me. I never had him as a foal, but I do have pics of him as a foal as I visited both his breeder and the owner of his sire to make pics of both mom and dad when I just got him. And I could still see the foal in him. So Yes he was my grandest foal.

DressageGeek "Ribbon Ho"

Nov. 4, 2005, 10:09 AM

Fargo - so so sorry this has been such a difficult time for you. I hope that things will imrpove.

Coreene

Nov. 4, 2005, 10:40 AM

Lieve Francis, Woensdag was mijn verjaardag. Ik ging naar het manege met een heel groot zak appels zo dat Ollie en z'n vriendjes ook een feestje kon vieren. Ik hoop dat Willem het zelfde deet met Fargo en all vriendjes in hemel. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/sadsmile.gif Ik denk dat Willem en Fargo nu echt "pals" zijn. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/yes.gif

Sterkte, my dear friend, sterkte. xoxoxoxox

emf

Nov. 4, 2005, 11:22 AM

Please know that my sympathies are with you. I nearly lost my dear Clancy from colic two nights ago, and may still lose him from injuries he sustained thrashing around. It's such an empty feeling without these special horses around.

RioTex

Nov. 4, 2005, 01:34 PM

Fargo, I too have a Fargo. He is fat and furry and he sends his love to you. I lost my most special horse nearly one year ago and the pain will lessen and the wonderful memories will move slowly into their place.

Gunnar

Nov. 5, 2005, 03:00 PM

<BLOCKQUOTE class="ip-ubbcode-quote"><div class="ip-ubbcode-quote-title">quote:</div><div class="ip-ubbcode-quote-content">Originally posted by Coreene:
Lieve Francis, Woensdag was mijn verjaardag. Ik ging naar het manege met een heel groot zak appels zo dat Ollie en z'n vriendjes ook een feestje kon vieren. Ik hoop dat Willem het zelfde deet met Fargo en all vriendjes in hemel. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/sadsmile.gif Ik denk dat Willem en Fargo nu echt "pals" zijn. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/yes.gif

Sterkte, my dear friend, sterkte. xoxoxoxox </div></BLOCKQUOTE>

Fargo, Coreene is wise beyond her years. And she keeps secrets about a certain day. http://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_wink.gif http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/winkgrin.gif(Translator.com ha ha)
Don't forget Gunnar is there with Willem and Fargo showing them the AQHA way of life http://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_wink.gif http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/sadsmile.gif

Sounds like you are getting better day by day. Keep your chin up and have fun with your Whizard!

fargo

Nov. 7, 2005, 08:45 AM

Thanks Gunnar, yes I think it is getting better a bit. I think your "shock" situation at the time with Katrina going on was even harsher and more difficult to comprehend (sorry older posting hadn't reacted to that yet). Had a good ride at my old riding school on friday evening. Got compliments on riding and cantering a (rather difficult) newish horse.. I didn't get the impression that he was that difficult although his buck was pretty high. But even my old instructor complemented me. That was nice. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/yes.gif
Lieve Coreene, nog van harte gefeliciteerd met je verjaardag. Ik heb het meteen genoteerd. Hoop dat je een goede dag hebt gehad. Ik denk dat ze inderdaad samen aan de appels zijn begonnen en er een feestje hebben gehad, anders zou ik me nog niet zo goed voelen denk ik.
Riotex: Funny that there's another fargo out there. Is it a horse or a cat or a dog??
And yes it is still strange to be without him and not get all my x-mas lights on in the evening to get on him and ride on the roads surrounding our stables. I've got so many lamps and jackets especially for that purpose and no one to use it for anymore http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/no.gif And no pics to prove how ridiculously good you could see us. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/winkgrin.gif http://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_biggrin.gif

fargo

Nov. 7, 2005, 08:46 AM

Thanks Gunnar, yes I think it is getting better a bit. All your thoughts and hugs are helping the healing process I think. I think your "shock" situation at the time with Katrina going on was even harsher and more difficult to comprehend (sorry older posting hadn't reacted to that yet). Had a good ride at my old riding school on friday evening. Got compliments on riding and cantering a (rather difficult) newish horse.. I didn't get the impression that he was that difficult although his buck was pretty high. But even my old instructor complemented me. That was nice. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/yes.gif
Lieve Coreene, nog van harte gefeliciteerd met je verjaardag. Ik heb het meteen genoteerd. Hoop dat je een goede dag hebt gehad. Ik denk dat ze inderdaad samen aan de appels zijn begonnen en er een feestje hebben gehad, anders zou ik me nog niet zo goed voelen denk ik.
Riotex: Funny that there's another fargo out there. Is it a horse or a cat or a dog??
And yes it is still strange to be without him and not get all my x-mas lights on in the evening to get on him and ride on the roads surrounding our stables. I've got so many lamps and jackets especially for that purpose and no one to use it for anymore http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/no.gif And no pics to prove how ridiculously good you could see us. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/winkgrin.gif http://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_biggrin.gif

fargo

Nov. 8, 2005, 06:52 AM

If I could turn the page
in time then I'd rearrange
just a day or two
close my, close my, close my eyes

Just two more memories. The first, a long time ago a jumping lesson from my (dressage) instructor. He wanted fargo to use his back and to temper his pace. So he placed 5 cavaletti at trotting distance in front of a jump of about 1,10 m high I guess. My instructor would walk before the first cavaletti from left to right for example so I had to trot slower to leave room for my instructor to pass. This resulted in a fargo lifting his legs with power over the cavalletti and the most fabulous and high "lifted round backed" jump I ever made. (creative with words I am http://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_biggrin.gif..)

The second one was riding on a certain sandy path during my trailrides on the way back home or back to trailer and Martin waiting at the end of the path.
I had a certain round that I rode, sometimes ending it there and then by getting on the trailer or riding the sandy path and getting on the trailer at the end of it or walking all the way home which was another 2 or 3 km. Anyways, Fargo always knew this was the road home and he should be satisfied and tired already by our round but this didn't quite work out like that most of the times. So we would canter the sandy path because it left us a lot of km of running out space and it was a great surface to gallop in. On this specific day the wind was blowing, there were a lot of cars blasting on the big motorway lying about 20 meters left next to the path (but devided by water). We started cantering and he was a bit hot, I thought I will stand and give him some space. His canter soon turned into a gallop and I give him a bit of an open hand to give him space to ease him down and with the idea that he would run out of steam soon. His jumps grew wider and wider with every pace and his jumps were rounder and so powerful and we went harder and harder. The wind blowin in my face. No talking, calling or sitting or closing my hands did much of anything he was just loving this gallop and his speed and form only became more powerfull. Every opening and or closing of the hands to calm him down only increased speed and pace and the space of the jump. It was really spectacular and he went on for a long time. It never felt dangerous though, only powerfull. Normally we'd get to a turn in the sandy road and he would stop there (out of steam) but at that specific day he even passed that point with no problems and just continued. Another turn further and I decided it was enough. I stopped him and decided he did enough and he walked on. But wow did he feel good. He could always amaze me when you wouldn't expect it.

Kim

Nov. 8, 2005, 09:38 AM

Hi Fargo, How are you feeling today? Thanks for sharing your memories of your very special horse. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/sadsmile.gif Did you get a chance to get the book? If not, PT me. http://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_smile.gif

Coreene

Nov. 8, 2005, 09:48 AM

Willem loved nothing more than to gallop as fast as he could, and reading this about Fargo's gallop had me smiling through tears with warm and fuzzy memories of The Great Red One. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/sadsmile.gif We were so lucky to have them, and they were so lucky to have us as well.

Francis, one of the biggest smiles I got was when I realized - long after Willem had gone - that having him helped me with a greenie like Oliver. Much to be said for a horse who knows so much to prepare you for the next one who stands in the same stall.

Of course, Willem did miss out on the whole Paprika Craze. I can only imagine what his opinions would have been! http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/lol.gif

RioTex

Nov. 8, 2005, 12:42 PM

Fargo is my 8 year old TB that came from Lord Helpus. He is momentarily changing his name to "Furbie" in honor of his glorious winter coat. http://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_rolleyes.gif He is a grouchy and lovable teddy bear that gives great kisses (with his ears back) and was a great neck to cry on when I lost my best guy last year. I hope each day brings a little less pain in your loss.

I remember the beautiful sunset we had the day I lost Passer and have seem the same beautiful sunsets again this November.

Perfect Pony

Nov. 8, 2005, 01:57 PM

fargo, I just want to say I hope you are doing alright, I have been thinking about you.

I looked in your webshots today and something finally hit me about your fargo this adorable picture of him. (http://community.webshots.com/photo/183022126/183023249gtaTqZ) Did he do that all the time?

I ask because my filly Lita does the same thing. (http://community.webshots.com/photo/332340400/382420221YIvlIo) I have never seen another horse do it. I just figured it was a way of begging?

I can see he was obviously a very special horse http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/yes.gif

Coreene

Nov. 8, 2005, 03:22 PM

PP, our "Oirish Harse" friend Rufus does this as well, it's like a 16.2hh, 1600 lb dog begging for treats!

Cashela

Nov. 8, 2005, 04:42 PM

I am so sorry.

fargo

Nov. 9, 2005, 12:15 AM

Yes that was a dear thing he did. It could mean a number of things. He did it for a number of things. To ask for attention, like you have to come now and give me some attention please and not give it to someone else ('s horse). If he wanted to get a closer look at something but couldn't he could do it too. He could also do it when the other horses at the old stables were allowed out and he wasn't (at all or yet). It could also be an important tool to show his impatience at something and finally to aks for treats or food which ultimately was the most important begging in the world to him. But this pic shows him asking for attention and APPROVAL and me not leaving him out there but to come over and come closer.
In the evening during this last year he would make his begging for his after work food very noisy. Actually banging into the door to make it quick. It's now very quiet in the evening.
Ah Riotex it's good to know there is still a horse out there called Fargo.
And fargo sure did a good job in preparing me for young "followers" to come.
Kim I will sent you a PT.

fargo

Nov. 14, 2005, 03:50 AM

Saturday I had a big scare. Since friday our horses are now on their winter scheme and that means that Willy and Whizard are outside from 14:30 til 17:30. I brought him in after that, it was a bit chilly compared to the warm after summer days that we've had until now. He started eating his kuilgras and after a while he stopped eating, started making faces and shaking his head and he started laying down a LOT. I had a really bad feeling of DEJA VU. He started moaning when he lay down and stretched and when he was standing he had his head down, hanging and looking very sad.. I couldn't stand it for very long 10 min (felt very panicky and powerless) or so and called the vet. They started their usual story, start walking and if it doesn't improve call again. I said "listen buddy"(well I didn't but I would have liked to) I just lost a horse to colic a few weeks ago, so you're coming out here. Luckily he understood and sent a colleague. He came quickly and gave him his shots and literally within minutes he was his own self again (but wasn't allowed to eat the rest of the night). Yesterday he started doing the same for one or two minutes and then seemed to "change his mind" and started eating again and was fine after that. Aaaaahhhh this is not fun to watch when you've just lost your horse to colic. So I've asked the barnowner to watch him closely in the afternoon.

fargo

Nov. 14, 2005, 10:37 AM

Oh these songs on the radio, hitting a nerve:

And someday in the mist of time
When they asked me if I knew you
I'd smile and say you were a friend of mine
And the sadness would be lifted from my eyes
Oh when I'm old and wise

And oh, when I'm old and wise
Heavy words that tossed and blew me
Like autumn winds will blow right through me
And someday in the mist of time
When they ask you if you knew me
Remember that you were a friend of mine

From Old and wise- The Alan Parson's Project

As you can see I believe that horses can talk.http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/winkgrin.gif
And I really really like the idea of the pig in babe II searching for "his" human. That formed the basis for my signature line.

Kim

Nov. 14, 2005, 11:27 AM

Hi Fargo,

How is Whizard feeling today? How scary for you to have to deal with another colic! Sending jingles that he is feeling fine. http://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_smile.gif

Gunnar

Nov. 14, 2005, 03:23 PM

fargo, how is Whizard? I just read this today and was worried.

Yes those songs. Liam Rimes (sp?) has a new song that just kills me but I cannot recite the words. My Gunnar http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/sadsmile.gifthoughts are mostly happy but when I hear that song I get teary eyed.

Hugs to you and please let us know how W is. I am jingling from here.

fargo

Nov. 15, 2005, 03:10 AM

Please jingle some more, because last night when I came from working late he started rolling within minutes of my arrival. He had gas colic and quite an intensive one at that. I will start another topic to ask for some opinions on feeding schedule etc and him being young e.a. I really was feeling so scared and nauseous and helpless.

fargo

Nov. 25, 2005, 12:40 AM

Some thanksgiving in relation to Fargo; so many things to be grateful for. (You must get sick and tired of me.. rambling on here)

- grateful for having you as a friend my dear fargo
- for recognising my foot steps outside the barn
- for all those long walks in the dark in the silence, just the two of us
- for you always trying for me when I asked and always willing to learn (even the things you feared most)
- for this last year together
- for those first lessons in the paddock after recovering early this year when you cantered and bucked like a young horse (preparing me for Whizard no doubt)
- for your beautiful eyes that shone when I was with you
- just for being my first horse
- for educating me on sooo many things
- for the feeling you gave me even when I was just sitting on you and walked with you
- for the richness of that unexpected canter after recovery (thinking I would never feel it again)
- for that sigh of relief when I came (sit with you) when you were ill on that last day in the early morning
Thank you my friend for being such a sensitive, intelligent, brave and loyal being. I will miss you, but savour the memories whe made together. I could go on for ever, you were such a gentle partner.

jetjocky

Nov. 25, 2005, 08:01 AM

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YoungFilly

Nov. 25, 2005, 03:28 PM

I for one am not sick of you Fargo. I think this has got to be very scary. Are you sure that the baby is really having gas colic?

Its pretty nerve wracking I am sure to see a horse that you love die, and then having another one who you care about seeming to have the same behaviors..... http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/cry.gif

fargo

Dec. 1, 2005, 06:38 AM

Thanks Youngfilly. The baby had cramps the first time with not much gas and the second time the vet heard a lot of gas and when he pressed him on the left side he actually went through his knees and fell down. It was terrifying really. The last two weeks he has been good. And I'm glad. He gets more hay now and starting from today his pellets are upped also because it is getting colder and he doesn't have a blanket on.
Yesterday I was walking my baby Whizard (who is starting to be around 16.1 to 16.2h) and the new people at our barn that moved here from a barn close by and they asked me whether Whizard was the one I was riding with all the lamps because they had seen me ride very often in the dark on the road from and to our and their barn. They took me by surprise and I felt really sad and told them that that one was my BIG horse. This one is the little one. They smirked because he's big in their eyes already and so we talked about fargo and his last year with his tendon problem and full recovery. And all this recovery DIDN'T HELP SHIT because he's gone anyway. After he died I checked out his legs one more time and they were really looking slim and young. What a waste.

Appassionato

Dec. 1, 2005, 07:57 AM

I'm so sorry!!!

Gunnar

Dec. 1, 2005, 10:43 AM

fargo, your thanksgiving tribute brought tears to my eyes. are you ok now? i know you miss him so much and time can only heal that wound. you are lucky to have whizard so take comfort in him.

keep your chin up and always remember you are in my thoughts! http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/sadsmile.gif

Hugs from Bodie and I!

witherbee

Dec. 1, 2005, 12:17 PM

Fargo, so sorry to hear about your big guy http://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_frown.gif Pleaase do talk to your vet about the issues that Whizard is having. We add electrolytes to make ours drink more, and this time of year, with the changeable weather, many times they aren't drinking enough. Your vet may have other suggestions (and hopefully more people on this forum will too), but that's one thing that we do to try to avoid colic (along with turnout, lots of hay and a good quality feed). It's not always preventable (as you've seen), but if you can at least momitor his water intake and keep him drinking it should help. If he has another episode, I'd have a fill workup done....

ivy62

Dec. 1, 2005, 01:44 PM

FArgo-
I do not know if someone may have suggested hot bran mash in his diet? I was told by a friend of mine that in England, that's where she is from. once a week they give the horses warm bran and she swears that there is no colic in England...... or at least not as often as here... Good luck and I hope that it all works out, You've had a tough couple of months.....

fargo

Dec. 2, 2005, 03:09 AM

Thank you for the tips. I am showing him how to drink when I'm there but have seen him drinking by himself also. Will keep an eye on that. Will think about adding electrolytes but when I think of it his saltblock is almost finished. Will order a new one to keep up his taste for water.
Am giving him the stuff bran mash is made off in the dry form because he doesn't know the wet form yet and I don't know if he will eat it when it's wet (those youngster can amaze you sometimes with what they will and won't eat). But it's a good tip and I will keep it in mind.
And last but not least Gunnar, I'm doing well I think but find it hard to cry about anything.. It must be the repressed feelings on fargo. But I tried to include all the special feelings for thanksgiving and had my eyes filled with tears when I finished. Strange to know that it's yet another friday today and that life does go on. Hope you are allright too?
Hugs to you all for caring! http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/yes.gif http://chronicleforums.com/groupee_common/emoticons/icon_smile.gif

afrikando

Dec. 2, 2005, 11:05 PM

thinking of you. http://chronicleforums.com/images/custom_smilies/sadsmile.gif

fargo

Dec. 6, 2005, 06:03 AM

Have finished writing and sending self made cards with beautiful picture of fargo cantering and sent them to all people involved in his life when he was with me. Those include old friends of him and mine from old stable and new and old friends at current stable and my horse riding friend outside of both stables. I thanked all for the interest and care and friendship and memories they've given fargo and me. It was a good feeling to get the last ones posted.
I took his golden coloured halter and rope and attached it to a rack in my front sleeping room where I keep my horse books in.
I washed the blue new halter he just got on the wednesday before he died. I plan to use it for Whiz, because the green one I bought for him didn't fit.
I made pictures during the afternoon in the clinic and after he died in the other clinic. I have them in my mobile phone and will print them later. Feel a bit anxious to actually look at them in a shop. I felt strange making them but I just wanted some last images to keep him close and remember him by. His sweet eyes, still open and looking quite normal. His legs and feet, given so much care and attention through the years. Perhaps a colleague can help unpack the pics so I can check them out alone before I go to a shop. Then I can be a bit more prepared.