Jingles needed..10 month old filly in clinic with colic - update - she's gone

[mtngirl]

Any positive thoughts and jingles you can spare would be greatly appreciated.

My 10 month old Hanoverian filly, Razmagical aka Maggie, is in the clinic with colic. Although she would be an excellent surgery candidate, I simply do not have the $6000-$15000 that would be required.

Vet is still guardedly hoping this can be resolved medically. He thinks part of her bowel is "displaced" but isn't sure that there is actually a twist. Poor thing is exhausted and although definitely not feeling good by any means, wasn't in severe pain or thrashing about. Vet says that if they can get the bowel empty and the swelling/bloating down, that there's a chance the bowel will settle back into it's "normal" position.

God, I wish I was right there with her. I'm all tied up in knots over it all.

[mtngirl]

I guess I am just too bitter for words. My precious filly is gone. Perhaps it was just bad timing, everyone out on a holiday night, but not even one jingle?

I guess it was just not meant to be. My heart is broken. RIP Razmagical. You will be sorely missed.

[Chief2]

Wasn't home to give you jingles, but certainly can give you hugs. We have been this road, and know how very hard it is. I am sure you will find her waiting for you when it becomes your own turn to cross the Rainbow Bridge.

So sorry for your loss. :(

[spotmenow]

Wasn't awake to send jingles but I am so sorry for your loss :(

[peskee]

So sorry for your loss.....

[dalpal]

I'm soo very sorry mtngirl. Hugs to you.

[shea'smom]

How absolutely rotten. There is just nothing comforting to say. I am so sorry for this sad loss.

[Addison]

Godspeed little girl.

Huge HUGS to you MTNGIRL. I am so sorry for your loss.

[rmh_rider]

Oh Sweetie,

I am so sorry. How very very sad for this to happen. And so quickly.

Jingles from the southland.

I can very much so understand about the cost of surgery.

She was a brave, special filly. Hope your heart heals soon.

jingles jingles jingles.

(((hugs))) too.

[Sugarbrook]

I was in bed and didnt see this until now. What a way to start the New Year. I know your pain and would not, for a minute, NOT send Jingles your way. :no:

[springer]

I'm so so sorry about your precious filly. I HATE colic, having been through a colic surgery. I'm glad she is out of pain but I know you are heartbroken. Rest in peace baby girl.

[ToN Farm]

Mtngirl, I tend to not open these kind of threads because it just breaks my heart to read about ill or lost horses. It brings back too many memories of loved ones lost.

It may be a blessing in disguise that you didn't have the money for the surgery. The risk of a second colic after surgery becomes increased. I did one colic surgery on a pregnant mare that had a displacement. She made it, but two years later she needed surgery again. She was never right after the surgery.

I know how badly you hurt; believe me I do. The pain will lessen as the days go by. Just cherish the little time you had with her.

[BoysNightOut]

I'm so sorry for your loss. :(

[Quinn]

Mtngirl, I am so terribly sorry. Absolutely heartbreaking.

http://community.webshots.com/user/ballyduff

[mustangtrailrider]

My heart goes out to you during this time of loss! God Speed Sweet filly!

[Auburn]

I am so sorry for your loss. :sadsmile::sadsmile:

I did not get on the computer last night or I would have sent jingles.

RIP, sweet filly. My thoughts and prayers are with you, during this time of grief. What a lousy way to start 2010. :(

[ptownevt]

Oh, gosh, I am so very, very sorry you went through this, especially, alone. How unfair.

[pj]

I'm so sorry that you had to lose your girl. It hurts horribly when they've lived a good long full life and it must be worse when they are so young.
I'm really sorry that nobody was here to try to comfort you. I wish we had been. Wish we could comfort you now but I know that we can't. I'm sorry.

[kfildes]

So terribly sorry for your loss. We've been there and it's so hard to loose a baby. I wasn't online last night so I missed the chance to send jingles. We certainly send condolences ....

[TrueColours]

I am so so sorry as well ...

{{{HUGS}}} to you and Godspeed to your filly ...

[Bluey]

Any positive thoughts and jingles you can spare would be greatly appreciated.

My 10 month old Hanoverian filly, Razmagical aka Maggie, is in the clinic with colic. Although she would be an excellent surgery candidate, I simply do not have the $6000-$15000 that would be required.

Vet is still guardedly hoping this can be resolved medically. He thinks part of her bowel is "displaced" but isn't sure that there is actually a twist. Poor thing is exhausted and although definitely not feeling good by any means, wasn't in severe pain or thrashing about. Vet says that if they can get the bowel empty and the swelling/bloating down, that there's a chance the bowel will settle back into it's "normal" position.

God, I wish I was right there with her. I'm all tied up in knots over it all.

How terrible, so sorry.:cry:
They can go so fast with some colics, you never know...
In a way, it is consolation that, if she had to go, she didn't suffer long days of misery before it was over.:no:

{{{HUGS}}}

[092556]

RIP Razmagical, I'm so sorry for your loss Mtngirl, I know how devastated you are, been there, done that, twice. Tears are flowing for you, Razmagical and my 2 ponies, Buzzy and Crystal.

Sorry I missed your post, it was unfortunate timing for most of us on COTH, I sign off at 10pm.

[MintHillFarm]

I guess I am just too bitter for words. My precious filly is gone. Perhaps it was just bad timing, everyone out on a holiday night, but not even one jingle?

I guess it was just not meant to be. My heart is broken. RIP Razmagical. You will be sorely missed.

I AM SO SORRY!!~!! I lost a foal who was 5 months old to a fracture. It broke my heart.

I feel for you and thinking of you at this horrible time. (:(:

[Invite]

I am terribly sorry for your loss. How tragic :( RIP little one!

[lilypondlane]

I am so sorry for your loss and know how heartbroken you are. It is terrible to lose any of them to a colic, but losing a baby is just incredibly sad. My broodmare, Roo, who I lost almost a year ago, lost her first foal, a filly, to colic at 4 months. It happened before I owned her, but I was always worried about the babies she had for me, that it could happen again. Hugs and love.

[Nipntuck]

I am so sorry for your loss. I have lost a couple of horses I've raised and recently lost my 35 year old. It's painful.

[Equilibrium]

Mtngirl,

I'm only just in the Horse Care section now. Generally not over here on a regular basis. Otherwise, I would have jingled like crazy.

I am so sorry for your filly and I know how you're heart is breaking.

Big hugs to you,

Terri

[Marshfield]

I'm sorry to hear of your loss

[Tee]

I am so sorry. (((hugs)))

[Zu Zu]

mtngirl ~ I am so very sorry about your Razmagical ~ I turned in early ~ anxious to put 2009 behind me to be quite honest. Thoughts and prayers for you today and during this most difficult time. RIP MAGGIE YOU WERE AND ALWAYS WILL BE LOVED.

[Treasmare2]

Sxteen years ago we lost a 10 month old filly...it still hurts. Godspeed to your filly and I hope she meets our loved Minuit.

[Summit Springs Farm]

So sorry for your loss, I have a 2 year old KWPN filly and well, I am so sorry for your loss.:cry:

[cajunbelle]

Our thoughts and prayers are with you!

[eventgroupie2]

Just saw this thread. Hugs from VA on your tragic loss. So sorry.

[dontcallmepat]

I am so sorry you lost your filly. I'll never understand why these things happen.
Yes, I think it was just bad timing...I wasn't on COTH last night, as I'm sure many others weren't.

We lost my daughter's first horse to colic last year, after owning him for only 3 months. Just long enough to fall in love with him. I couldn't afford the surgery either. I still miss him so much.

Hugs,
Patti

[RioTex]

I am so sorry for your loss. Having lost two on the table in the past 10 years, I can tell you that spending the extra thousands, doesn't always change the outcome. Too many of us feel your pain today. Hang in there. It does fade with time.

[flyinghorse]

Big hugs from South Carolina...I am so sorry for your loss, GodSpeed Little One!

[foundationmare]

So sorry for the loss of your filly. As I'm sure you know, you weren't abandoned by us, we were just off our computers and away from COTH. I know your heart is broken and the pain is keen. Maggie is in good company across the bridge.

Hugs to you.

[Cielo Azure]

Colic...sucks. I feel your pain so deeply.

We lost our Katie this year to colic. My son (Katie was his main dressage horse) hasn't ridden since she died in May and says he will never ride again.

RIP Katie
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nqOEbp6CUMo

I hope your little girl went easy, sometimes that is all we can give them.

[mtngirl]

One of the things that hurts so bad about this is that I finally got the money together and they tried the surgery. It was too late...the cecum had telescoped and the bowel was already dying. I keep thinking had we gotten to the surgery earlier she might have made it. I simply couldn't raise the money fast enough.

Six years ago I lost a 19 month old filly I'd bred to colic...again...had to be put down on the table. I'm simply devistated. Maggie was everything I could have asked for...she had all the traits I'd dreamed of breeding, the bloodlines, the movement, the personality. Obviously it is not in the plan for me to raise a foal to maturity. I've tried twice now and lost both to colic. Vets/breeders assure me it's nothing in my lack of care, but it has me second guessing none the less.

Thanks for the hugs. I'm still in tears and shock over it.

[Zu Zu]

mtngrl ~ you did everything you could for your filly ~ you are second guessing this on "earlier surgery" ~ please be kind to yourself ~ the vets/breeders assured you that it had nothing to do about the care. Maggie knew you tried your hardest and she knows you will always love her. Hugs to you during this impossible time.

[Pookah]

I'm SO sorry!!! If it makes you feel any better, I did actually read your post last night and thought that I had replied, but must not have clicked all the way through (a few too many NYE drinks). So she did get some jingles before she was gone!! It's a terribly sad ending, and I know that this won't make you feel any better for a long time to come, but horses are at a much higher risk for colic after colic surgery, so who knows if you might have been subjecting her to a life of colicking had she survived. It took me a long time to believe this, but I am a firm believer that things do happen for a reason, and that sometime it just takes a LONG time to see that reason!

[selah]

I'm so sorry:(
I lost a gorgeous foal to "dummy foal syndrome" last spring. Even if I had thrown buckets of $ at the problem, the outcome would have been the same, except for the fact that I would have been putting him through misery until he crossed the bridge. It is such grief..((HUG)))

[Dutch]

I am very sorry for your loss.

[talloaks]

This is just so sad and what a way to start the new year. RIP sweet little one and hugs to you mtngrl.

[EquineLVR]

It is so hard to lose them.. we have all been there. Huge hugs for you and God speed Maggie..

[3Dogs]

oh I am so sorry :no: - I just don't get to the Horse Care thread often - many many hugs to you!

[3horsemom]

i am so sorry. sometimes life just sucks.

[Griffyn]

10 months! Just after all the terrifying baby stuff they do is sorta over-- so so sorry you lost your baby girl. But please dont second guess yourself. As others have said- surgery isnt always a good fix. Jingles- late- but for you- so that your heart wont stay broken and 2010 will be a banner year in other ways.

[Huntertwo]

My condolences....:cry:
Big hugs from CT.

[Hip]

I'm so sorry for you. Poor sweet girl.

[fivehorses]

I just want to add my condolences. Losing a baby is even tougher.
Sorry no one was here to jingle for her. So, now we will jingle for her to have a happy life over the rainbow bridge till she sees you again.
take care.

[twofatponies]

So sad. Two gone already and the year is just beginning!. :(

[jenm]

mtngirl, I'm so very sorry I wasn't around to give you jingles and I'm sad to hear your precious girl did not make it. I can send you lots of {{hugs}} but I know it won't help ease the pain you must be feeling.

Hugs and more hugs from California in the hopes they help even a tiny bit.

[flea]

So sorry to hear about your filly. Please don't beat yourself up about not doing anything earlier. As per a discussion a few hours ago concerning the cecum etc. it seems that there are not a lot of cases that turn out well in that case no matter how early they are reached. This is in my mind as I am up with my daughters 18 yo who coliced earlier tonight and the vet and I were discussing various scenarious and options. I believe he is going to be OK, had the vet out etc. My thoughts are with you.

[ivy62]

Cyber Hugs to you..Sorry for your loss..Was not on line after about 11pm so I did not see your thread....
You did everything humanely possible.....She knows she was loved and will meet you at the Rainbow Bridge

[Claddagh]

Heartfelt condolences on your devastating loss. Colic (the ultimate enemy) :mad: - we've all been there and sometimes, no matter what you do, it doesn't turn out well.

Godspeed.
RIP sweet Maggie. :cry:

[summerhorse]

So sorry you lost your baby. I would not have been able to afford the surgery either esp. considering the iffy outcomes of so many colic surgeries. May she rest in peace.

[monstrpony]

I am so very sorry. Everyone's worst nightmare. Just ... sucks.

[LLDM]

I am so very sorry for your loss. I lost a 10 month old colt several years ago. It is such a tough age to lose them, still babies, but clearly showing you who they are. All potential - a beautiful beginning.

Of course you want it to be your fault. That would mean you had some control over what happened - or over anything. I wanted it to be my fault too, something I could fix. But sometimes we don't get that. All we get is what we had. But even then, it was worth it don't you think? To have them even for a little while. Even though it hurts like hell now?

I'm sorry we weren't here to jingle, but we're here now - such that it is. Hugs, darlin' and hang in there. There are worse things in the world than to have a 10 month old filly living in your heart.

SCFarm

[Trevelyan96]

I am so sorry for your loss. Hugs to you Mtngrl.

RIP Maggie.

[Dressage Art]

I am so sorry for your loss. Hope she is running free in Heaven

[sfstable]

Hugs to you. I also lost my mare yesterday suddenly. She loved babies so I am sure she is up there taking care of yours.

[tidy rabbit]

Oh if I'd seen this thread I'd have been jingling like mad for your sweet girl! I'm so sorry for your loss. So so sorry. :(

[tidy rabbit]

Hugs to you. I also lost my mare yesterday suddenly. She loved babies so I am sure she is up there taking care of yours.

Sorry for your loss too!
:cry:
I'm going to give my mare and colt extra hugs in the morning.

[ivy62]

I would like to add, for those like me who do not have $6000 laying around for the horse to need surgery..Please consider insurance...it is very cheap! I think for the major medical and mortality it is like 400-500 for the year as long as the mortality value isn't that high...You can pay over the course of many months so it is not bad or you can just have surgical...I am so happy I have it because I couldn't afford it either...
JMHO

[CookiePony]

I'm so sorry, mtngrl and sfstable. May your girls rest in peace.

[Watermark Farm]

Mtngirl, I am so sorry about the loss of your Maggie. Please do not be hard on yourself, sometimes surgery is not possible, nor even the best thing. You did your best, which is all you can do.

My 11 month old baby colicked and had surgery. I had the money to provide surgery (twisted large intestine plus impacted cecum). At one point during surgery, the nurse came out to speak to me. All was going well, but there were some mild concerns about the cause of the colic. They/I had a conference call with my close friend, an equine surgeon --- at 2am. Her advice was to put him down on the table because she had concerns that a youngster would have such a strange cecal impaction. Her impression was that something was just not right about my youngster and he'd go on to have more problems.

I ignored her advice. I loved my horse, and damn the money!

As it turned out, she was right. My horse came through surgery and recovered with flying colors. It was a LONG haul to confine a baby for so long, it was very hard. He developed some behavioral issues due to the layup that were troublesome, and permanent. He went on to have a myriad of major health and soundness issues, and, although he never colicked again, he died in my arms just this past October at the ripe old age of 8, of abdominal lymphoma. We called him "My $17,000 lawn ornament" because that's what I'd spent on specialists and surgeries over the years. I had backed him then retired him at age 4.

There were many times when I'd wished I'd let him go on that table, or not taken him for surgery at all. As much as I loved him, that was the start of many problems and I'm not sure I'd do colic surgery on such a young, unproven horse ever again.

My heart goes out to you. Please accept my deepest condolences on your loss of Maggie. My Half Pint is in Heaven right now teaching her how to break fence boards!!! ~Katie

[mtngirl]

Thanks for the hugs. They really do mean a lot. I'm still reeling from the loss. I almost didn't try the surgery, but some part of my mind just wouldn't let it go without trying. I've never been good at separating my emotions from my wallet. I tend to fall very hard for the young ones...bond too close and too hard.

I have dealt with insurance in the past...perhaps it was the particular company, but he premiums just kept going up and up and then they started requiring major medical etc until the price just got beyond what I could do at that time.

I doubt I'll ever get another youngster...just doesn't seem to be in the stars for me, but if i did, i would reinvestigate insurance. I do enjoy working and watching the little ones grow and learn, but the heartbreak of losing them is almost too much for me to bear. This filly had the bloodlines I could only dream of....Royal Prince, Rhodiamont, Weyden, Banter, and then the G line on the dam side, going back to Grande.

Well, thanks once again for the hugs. Maggie's running freely over the rainbow bridge, free of care and worries and I hope full of memories of my love.